Mental Breakdown

[Toshanicole]

I just recently went through a severe mental breakdown, it was horrible and lasted almost a month was severely depressed and cried none stop and was starting to have bad thoughts. I would reach out to family and no one would help me or cared enough to help which made me worse. Currently on meds and I’m feeling better I just never want to go through that again so now I have fear of depression and breakdowns. Will it ever go away and me be normal again ?

[kit416]

Sorry to say but depression is a lifelong battle, just like an addiction. It creeps up on me every now and then but once you’ve armed yourself with knowledge about depression and the tools that are right for you - you can live happy and free. I had a similar experience and had to go on FMLA leave from my job for three months. Sometimes a break is needed, we are too hard on ourselves and everyone processes things differently. Don’t be afraid of it, embrace it.

[Toshanicole in reply to kit416]

I just starting having bad depression after I had my first child in 2015. I had post partum so bad I had to stay with family because I couldn’t be alone, I needed company. Every since I’ve been on this roller coaster with depression and bad anxiety. I went the longest without medication or going to the doctor. I would always try to just get over it myself but it eventually gets so bad where it gets out of my hands and I just want to give up at times. This most recent nervous breakdown I had was the worst of them all and I’ve onmy had a couple nervous breakdowns. It was the worst feeling . Plus I was also helping everyone else when I couldn’t even help myself. Makes no sense. I’m amways there for my family and everyone but the one time I needed help no one would help me and it was a shitty feeling. If it weren’t for my 2 children (2 & 3) I don’t know how I would have gotten through that dark time that I still think about and now fear of ever feeling that pain again. Mental illness and all that good stuff runs on both sides of my family and I was lucky enough to get it. My problem is I let everything build up in me until I can’t tsje no more then I break. This happened over stuff that’s happened the past 2 years. I just let it all build til I can’t take no more and I’m a nervous wreck. I hope this med they have me on continues to work for me.

[kit416 in reply to Toshanicole]

I hope so too - try to work on not letting things build up. And try not set your expectations of other people at your level. Obviously you treat people good you expect it in return - a hard lesson to learn but very necessary