Too tired

[MandyBueno]

Here again, i'm still taking the pills, yesterday was a full busy day for me, too many feelings to Handle. Just found out i couldn't pay college because my parents used my Money for something else. Don't get me wrong, it is a pleasure for me to be able to support myself and make my own Money and help them with the bills, but i'm overwhelmed. I cried like a Baby yesterday and didn't have enough sleep, i woke up with that splitting headache and dizzy, i'm at work feeling numb....my mom Just sent me a message saying she fixed the problem, but the damages it caused me last night....brought me these feelings.

[CazO46]

I think it often happens like that, you have good days and bad days , I feel the same some days it doesn't take much to tip me over into a difficult place. At work I'm good at solving other people's problems but feel powerless to resolve my own. Sometimes I think a good cry can help release the sadness at the time but exhausting. I hope you have better days to come and know you are never alone X

[Colie31]

I hold resentment towards my parents for similar situations. Growing up I always seen my parents struggle with money and we always seemed to get evicted. So when I finally was able to get a job I had no problem helping with the bills bc I thought I was doing the right thing. I was still new to the whole opening a new bank account and being an adult thing, so my mom helped me every step of the way. Even ordered new checks and was trying to establish credit. When later I found out my money wasn't being used to pay the bills and we lost the house anyway and one of my check books ended up missing and found out my mom stole it and was writing cold checks. I realize now as I'm older I have things on my credit report which turns out to have been my mom stealing my identity, I've confronted her and she plays victim and tries to say she will help me out but I'm always stuck with fixing the overdrawn accounts bc everything is in my name. I finally closed my account and finally was able to get things under control...except for my credit score. But I have such animosity towards my mom, even when she asks to borrow 5 dollars it triggers these bad feelings. She's also on drugs which could have contributed to why she did the things she did, but I to am dealing with trust issues with her. You want your parents in your life and you love them Unconditionally but afraid to let them in, at least that's what I'm dealing with. I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one, but remember it's not selfish to put yourself first over what might be going on with your parents. I had to understand that they were adults and I didn't have to try to help every ime they were in a bind. I hope everything works out and voice your concerns, they could be understanding about them.

[MandyBueno in reply to Colie31]

You have Just described how i feel. My parents Always had those financial problems, i let my father use my credit and things ended up in this bad way, my sister Just left home to go to college and they have to sustain her, well,me...i do sustain myself, i try not to spend too much and i have only use my credits 3 times....but when i checked my Bank account and saw that a good part of my Money was gone, i freaked out. I have so many plans......i hope i can fix this and i hope one day your wounds will be healed.

[fauxartist]

I can really understand that would make me very upset too....I am sorry you had to go through all that....but thankfully your mom took care of the problem....that's really great.