Have you ever had bad thoughts?

[Carry-On]

And I don't mean that in terms of bad thoughts about others, but more so yourself. Let me explain. I constantly find myself thinking about terrible things happening to me - example: when I am in the car, I always think about getting into a car accident and what would happen (I literally play out the image in my mine). And sometimes I think that if these things were to happen to me, I would actually enjoy it. Realistically speaking I would never want these things to happen - but I think to myself that if I were in pain, if I had gone to the hospital, etc. then maybe people would start to care for me. I know these thoughts aren't normal but I don't know why I constantly find myself having them

[deea21]

Hey. I had this feelings in he past very often. But with them also physical pain. To remover them I did some exercises with my mind telling to shut it down for couple of times like shut up mind until sometimes it make me smile. Was a funny way and ensure to stop those feelings while driving it. In time I stopped being afraid of something bad happening. You need to work with yourself the way you feel it right and feel what works for you. For me, if my mom told me to do something, it really helps. Big hug and I hope you will work it through!

[CazO46 in reply to deea21]

I don't know if helps but I'm getting cognitive behavioural therapy to help change my ingrained negative thought process, perhaps it's something you could consider? Best wishes to you

[Carry-On in reply to CazO46]

When I see my psychiatrist in a few weeks, I will definitely bring this up to her. I know she mentioned it in the past when I saw her, but I never followed through with it. Definitely will be doing that now - thank you so much!