I need support
I’m in danger of being put back in mental faculties
I’ve been in therapy for 30 years
My behaviour is becoming unstable
And I’m over medicated
I’m going back to old behaviours
I’m fighting hard my faith is the only thing keeping me from self destruction
Please anyone help me
It's understandable to be scared of going into a facility, but if you are unstable and overmedicated it could be best to avoid something even worse- your symptoms could get worse before they get better. Do you have support and a good dr?
That is scary, but you must have gotten better for them to let you out right? Can you go back to your Councelor and try to put you on another medication? Maybe that's why your feeling this way?? Faith is a powerful thing..,have you tried getting in a group session. I did, it felt good to be around others who knew how I feel. I pray a lot and when I feel like my depression/anxiety are trying to come back, I quickly have a talk with myself, So far so good. Stop watching the news and talking with people who aren't feeling you, they'll just tell you to get over it...if it was just that easy Right? There would be no one who's depressed problem Solved...Not. Good Luck
Yes don't lose faith...talk to yourself.. pray all the time..All the Time ..ask for anything in your prayers, anything and everything..you will get through this, you will..its ok..
You mentioned "old behaviours". I think I can relate without knowing specifics. Look if you are in trouble and these behaviours are the trouble that is going to bring you down lets concentrate on it.
Seeing that you don't have (or thinking you don't) any support to help you through this I will give you my best shot on advice.
stay with me this won't take long.
And I am going to add that do not alter or change your meds without your Docs permission.
Every day you wake up and start making decisions on everything you do from what you are going to have for breakfast where you are going who you are going to see ect. Somewhere in your decision matrix there is one decision that leads to a run of bad ones thats puts you in a place where you don't feel good about yourself or you get angry ect. And you fall victim to these behaviours.
remember a day that this happened and write down everything you did and how you were feeling when you were doing it and when you find the thing that put you a bad place (in your head) trace it back and find which decision started it.
With me I was so depressed and lacked any self esteem I was working three jobs sleeping in my truck three nights a week and my poor decision was one of the first things I did in the morning, I was putting dope in my coffee. sometimes I would get through a day without "behaving poorly" and other times not. Ultimately I was leading myself into a place of anger. once I realized this I had a chance to stop it and did.
I hope and pray this will give you a chance to at least not feel helpless against it.
the first day you get through after changing your decisions and avoiding poor behaviour will be the beginning of you feeling like you can control your life and I won't lie to you its work every day. you have to want it.
I will pray for you.
I cannot thank you enough for your advice you nailed it
Everything you say is exactly what is happening
God bless you
My pleasure.
Scared of happiness 
Will I loose my SS Disability? Scared!
scared I won’t get better
Scared to feel better ?
Scared I’ll lose my job
