My emotions have been all over the place lately because I am doing a paper and a presentation on bullying it hurts me because I have been bullying literally my entire life. From being called fat and ugly. Throughout my entire elementary school. The start of middle school was physically abused by my next door neighbor that was one month younger than me. That same neighbor raped me multiple times over a period of a year when I when 12-13 years old. He even every once and a while would share me with his friends. And during that time I was then called a whore slut bitch ugly fat weird. By him and his friends. It stopped however the damage was already done I at that point believed all of the words that they called me were true plus more like disgusting rude brat mean stupid dirty a waste of space useless hopeless hoe worthless shouldn’t be Alive that I deserved to be hurt and would be better off dead.
Last year I went on vacation to Belgium it was fun people called me pretty and beautiful. It was sad cause I didn’t believe them. When we got back me my sister and our mom got in a car accident. And ended up in a hospital. So we ended up moving earlier then planned.
In August that year I was talking back to my mom and she slapped me and pulled my hair because I wouldn’t give her my phone she called me disrespectful. Then she watched me start to cry and she said go ahead and cry I don’t care. And left I ran upstairs and ended up having my first panic attack which also turned into being the first time I cut myself. I was 16.
Then after that I met a guy and my best friend made some stupid decisions everyone turned on me I cut even more and tried to kill myself and then ended up In a mental hospital for 11 days and ended up missing school for 10 days. This happed from the 8-19 of December in 2016.
So hurt 
Helpless and hurting 
Broken and Hurt
Everything Hurts.
