I'm very new to this so bare with me..

[LadyQuin6]

Hello, I'm just going to be straight forward, I've dealt with anxiety and a lot of panic and depression for years. I always thought I was just crazy, or as some would say, that it's just an overreaction and things are fine. But things don't feel fine to me anymore. The older I get (and I'm not even 30 yet) the worse my attacks seems to feel and be and some times it made me feel embarrassed to even talk about to someone for fear they would think I'm being crazy. I was having a very bad attack recently which led me to look online for help since the few people I am close to were unavailable. Usually being alone really triggers my thoughts. And the smallest things seem to just set me off now. Not in an angry way, but simply panic. Then one thing leads to another and that panic grows to where I'm worried about everything as if my whole life is just crashing before me and the problem would be triggered by something as little as my home being messy. I've come for help and possible answers. I've never been to fond of the idea of medicine to cure these "illnesses" and so I have always refused that route. To sum it up, though I feel for those going through the same issue as I, it's comforting to know that I am not alone. That's why I decided to become a member and I hope it will help, even if it's just a little. I hope bonds can be built as well. It's nice to know you can make a friend especially going through the same issues.

[kinikia95 ADAA Volunteer]

You have friends here already just by posting. Welcome. We don't like to use the term "crazy" for anything but as bad as panic and depression feel they are not what anyone would term "crazy", if we were to use that. Being alone give us too much time to think and sometimes folks like us can use that extra time to go to dark places and think too much in wrong ways. This is a great site but I would always suggest that you also find a therapist if you can. Keep talking here. I think you'll find lots of folks with the same exact issues. I know I have and even if we can't fix them it's comforting to be understood. I'm sorry for your trouble but I'm glad you've found us.