Normal?

[jewlz17]

Because of the way I am I'm not "normal" to people in my life and it sucks because I don't need the label. I already feel isolated and different. I tell myself it's not a bad thing but I just can't deal today this week started bad and all I do is cry. I broke down at work and I'm holding it in now and it hurts. But I'll try pull thru next few hours.i just wanna hide in my bed shut off my phone be in my own bubble.

[August1]

The battle with "normal" is all too familiar with me. I'll have great days followed by bad days, but only the bad gets remembered. Don't do what I did. I quit jobs a lot because of my anxiety.

I'll start off fine, saying hi to everyone, trying to smile... eventually a bad day rolls around. people see me avoiding their eyes. I start to avoid everything and just focus on my work because I don't want to risk having a negative interaction. The pressure builds and I walk out thinking everyone is against me. I've been through so many jobs I'm starting to lose count. I can't get health insurance because I don't stay long enough.

And it's not that everyone dislikes me. maybe they do, maybe they don't. but I realize it's my disorder causing me to feel that way. I start to become the person I didn't want them to see just so my brain can make sense of it.

My advice to you Jewlz, is that you take plenty of breaks. I don't know where you work or what it's like there, but what always helped me a little was going off to listen to one of my favorite songs or a funny video I liked. If there's someone at your work that you think is a good person, try to open up to them.

I was feeling good one day so I told this girl who seemed nice. I told her I get really stressed sometimes and I start being rude with everyone. To my surprise, she understood and things improved after that for awhile.

Hold on to your job. It feels amazing when you quit, but worse when you have to find another one.

[jewlz17 in reply to August1]

Thanks and don't worry I won't quit I have a kid to think about but it's just really bad emotional day

[Kakes808]

There is no such thing as normal! Everyone has their own tweaks. Not one person on this planet is normal. We are all beautifully different in our own unique way 😊 and instead of being down about it, love yourself no matter what condition you're in. This is your life don't let people bring you down. Those people don't deserve you. ❤️ surround yourself with people who love and make you feel loved 💜

[vanessa3]

Sweetie find activities that make you happy so you can lift your self esteem up join a fitness gym make your own smoothie go to the beach soak your feet. It's okay to be strange embrace it and also care for yourself this is the only body you will have in this life so find the good in everything. And do the best you can Hun. Good luck !🍀