Hi, I'm New Here!

[Lzrdlvr]

Hello. I just recently found this site and it's amazing! I've been going through a hard time lately, getting into deeper depression and im scared itll get too bad to get myself out alone. I cant afford therapy and am trying to find some low or no cost options. This site seems perfect for those really bad moments in the bad times. I live alone and when im not at work im alone a lot which really triggers and fuels my depression. Its been bad the last couple months and im feeling like i have a constant black hole in my chest and i cant shake it.

[cbreslin]

I'm sorry you're feeling that way. I know those feelings in a very real way. I try to think positive and keep trying to push forward but there's that little voice in the back of my mind that reminds me of all the things that are going wrong in my life and I can't seem to shake it. I just lost my insurance so I can't afford therapy and medications... I like you always feel that black hole or black cloud that seems to follow me. Just know you're not alone and we are hear if you need to talk.

[Lzrdlvr in reply to cbreslin]

Thank you. Its really nice to see I'm not alone. It always looks and seems like everyone around has everything together and nothing touches them. It makes me wonder what we're all struggling with at any given time.

[cbreslin in reply to Lzrdlvr]

I know, we tend to learn to hide our true self in front of others so they don't judge us or whatever. I personally like to share my stories and struggles. It helps me and if I can help someone else awesome. I know how it feels to be at the darkest moments of your life but I also know the good parts too. It's definitely a struggle, one I'm still trying to master myself. My problem is he negative self talk.. I need to really focus on putting out good positive energy into the world so that it comes back to me. I do believe that if you think it, and want it badly enough you can make it happen. It's all a state of mind, though not an easy feat to accomplish.. try to keep your chin up, life is one big struggle but when we can rise from the ashes there is great strength in it!! Much love!