Advice for this anxiety?

[FixingThePineapple]

So I get anxious about a lot of things but for now I need some help with my anxiety about a specific thing. It's hard to explain but I'll try my best.

I'm not really sure why I do this but sometimes I become irrational and think the things people are doing around me are because of me or have something to do with me in a negative way. For example, my boyfriend leaving trash on the table. I see it and get angry and think he must be doing that on purpose because he doesn't care about me having to pick it up. When, in reality, he just forgot or wasn't paying attention.

Today for the first time I actually caught myself in the act. We were sitting next to each other watching tv and he got up to go lay down on our other couch. I immediately got angry and thought that he must have moved because he doesn't want to sit next to me. Then he got on his phone and those self-absorbed thoughts intensified. I almost couldn't hold my tongue because I was so angry and hurt. Then I convinced myself he was mad at me and moved away out of anger. But something funny happened in the show we were watching and he smiled at it... I don't know what happened to me then but suddenly, almost overwhelmingly quickly, I realized he wasn't angry at me and his moving to another couch had nothing to do with me.

That's the first time I've ever caught myself doing that but now that I know, I am realizing that I do this quite often. Can anyone relate? Is there any way I could possibly snap myself out of thinking that way?

[Hidden]

Hi it sounds to me like you already have. Remember and apply the lesson you have learnt. I used to think people were laughing at me until I got counselling. A few weeks later I was walking past a table when everyone burst out laughing and my immediate thought was that must have been a good joke. I was so shocked I thought that, I stopped and was pleased with myself.

[Moaguirre12 in reply to Hidden]

I agree^^ it's all about self awareness and recognizing your illness.

I do the same thing to my boyfriend. I am still learning how to control it completely but sometimes it feels like I just absolutely need to say or do something because I feel hurt or upset. I direct my focus back to my breathing to calm my heart rate (that feels like it's gonna jump out of my chest)-deep breathes in and out. This helps me become more rational in my thoughts because I'm no longer in a body state of panic.

[Hidden in reply to Moaguirre12]

There are times we all need to speak out and times when we don't. The wisdom is in knowing the difference.

[FixingThePineapple]

Thank you both for the advice and the encouragement. I am still learning about myself and it's good to know I'm on the right track. Hope you guys are well.