Depressed

[Motionsmom]

I hate feeling this way...

[BonnieSue]

Which way is that?

[Motionsmom in reply to BonnieSue]

Where do I start? I became depressed after my youngest was 4months old, was diagnosed with postpartum depression then I found out I was pregnant, i felt good not much depressed, and excited because after 3 boys we were getting a baby girl. On my second trimester I lost her. This happened in Jan and I am deeply depressed I get easily angered, very irritable, very unstable emotionally, lack of energy, crying bouts and just hopelessness. I am a believer and always used to sing, talk to God throughout the day and I just can't anymore. My moments of joy come from my children especially from my now 1 yrs old because I love babies. I work full time from home so I barely have time for myself to grieve and I feel very lonely in my house during the day. Although I hate working I prefer doing so from home 100%. I have an appt today with PCP for medication. I was prescribed Prozac but had to stop it because I couldn't function d/t brain fog.

Sorry about your loss 😞

[BonnieSue in reply to Motionsmom]

Are you in counseling? This is critical after such a loss but already needed for depression alone, compounded by the loss of your baby. I am so very sorry about the loss of your precious baby. How difficult that must be! How urgently you need counseling!

There's probably an antidepressant that will work for you, even though the Prozac wasn't your answer. You just need to try something else until another drug works. I didn't have any brain fog with Prozac, I suspect you had an unusual and rare side effect. We're all different and have to find our best medicine by trial and error.

It seems God can be appreciated in the joy he allows through your children for now. We have to rejoice in him where we find him in our lives in each stage if our lives since it does change as we go through different phases.

[Motionsmom in reply to BonnieSue]

I had gone to a counselor but she wasn't a good fit for me. She actually confronted me when I mentioned how angry I got at God and in my anger I forbid him to take away any of my other children. She wasn't empathetic, professional about my pain at all. She took it personal so I'm in search of another counselor. I hoping to find a good one. One that can help me grieve.

[BonnieSue in reply to Motionsmom]

I understand. I wouldn't be comfortable with such a person either. I hope you find someone else soon. Have you tried the online site of Psychology Today? I've only glimpsed it but psychiatrists and therapists post their pictures, philosophies, education, specialties, whether they charge on a sliding scale by income for those who can't afford the whole fee, and also insurance accepted and other details. It's not a comprehensive list but it's a place to look. Getting a recommendation is still the best.