I've not been having a great time of it lately. I have depression and anxiety and currently on medication. I am in a fixed term contract that was sold to me as the work is there, we just need the sign off. It was due to expire end of October but I have been extended to March next year. They still have no idea what my future holds, they are always careful with what they say ( understandably I know) but I feel that I am being messed around. in the meantime, I have been spoken to and treated badly by my two colleagues. I hold my tongue because of my job and sometimes because of the agitation it causes me for them to create a conflict ( where I am always wrong). as a result I am sat in limbo not knowing what will come of me, being treated like crap.
I've been told everyone complains of said people's attitudes but don't make it official because they are afraid. I don't recognise myself anymore. I have become this shell of a person. I don't sleep, I overeat, I panic constantly.. waking in the middle of the night with an anxiety attack.
I have applied for new jobs, it won't pay as much as this one though but I need stability and peace.
I don't know really what the purpose of my post is other than to just tell someone. I feel like I am going crazy.