Self Acceptance is Key

[PAPAMAU1]

I was born in 1955 and lived with a supportive two-parent, six-sibling family. I didn't know anything about mental health diagnoses. We lived on a family farm, then moved to the town next door, and my father started a family business. I knew I was different from everybody else and never considered that difference. I took on the task and expectation and did my best. In hindsight, I recall running to everything I was asked to do. I felt pressure surrounding the implied deadline when completing an exercise or writing assignment. "Slow down" was often said to me. Then I recall the forgetful nature of behaviors; so many thought my forgetfulness was due to my lack of care. As I matured and attended college, I enjoyed my individuality as I took on the role of the clown...at times that is. Then, in my employment experiences, for reasons I don't fully understand, I tended to throw myself under the bus when a conflict arose. My best understanding was the need to arrive at a conclusion; nobody was talking. A part of me asked myself whether any of the bad outcomes had to do with my individual contribution. With little impulse control, I took on my part, which satisfied the issue. One other point has to do with hyperactivity and how I converted physical hyperactivity into cognitive hyperactivity.

[Mamamichl]

I’m glad you had a positive childhood, mostly. Welcome. Turning the physical into mental hyperactivity is more common in females with adhd, but it does happen with males as well. This symptom is generally treated with anxiety/depression medications.

[Lory_Y]

I really appreciate how genuine and open you are about your journey, from growing up on a farm to learning more about yourself later in life. It’s a great reminder that accepting who we are is really important.