Hi
I was wondering if any one else has similar issues to myself. I was diagnosed with inattentive ADHD at 50 years. I was very hyperactive as a child and still cant eat food colourings, too much sugar and chocolate.
I did how ever eat chocolate on the weekend just out of boredom I think. I'm regretting it now as I'm feeling really depressed today.
I really thought I would be able to get my life together once I started on meds. The meds have made a huge difference mostly to my emotional regulation but I'm still playing catch up from all of my physical injuries due to stress related accidents which I truly believe has been caused by my undiagnosed ADHD.
My latest injury was dislocating my toe a couple of years ago which lead to knee problems. Over the first wave of covid we were in lockdown and I couldn't access a physio and my quad muscle got very atrophied so I'm in the process of strengthening it. It's taking ages as I have some cartilage damage now after repeatedly injuring it. This injury really limits what I can do, in regards to work outside my house and also exercise. I swim a lot and do knee exercises etc but can't walk my dog or use an exercycle at the moment (my husband walks our dog now).
I would love to be out in the world working having a life not stuck at home mostly cleaning, cooking. Ten years ago I finished a graphic design degree which I accomplished through hyper focus, I was one of the top students. I never ended up getting a job because I broke my wrist and developed rsi. I also listened to my Brother who told me I was too old to work in a youth driven industry which is a little bit true but I was like 42 then so more true now. Also the stress of deadlines etc would have been impossible for me unmedicated.
Since then it's been one injury after another. I have thought about doing another degree because if I can't work at least I would be occupied. I seem to need the structure of working towards a qualification. It seems to be a major motivating force.
I will feel better tomorrow and pick myself up, I realise how lucky I am in a lot of ways. But I feel quite isolated in my quiet house today and feel most people don't get how ADHD really affects every aspect of your life! And how all of this can be very limiting.
Thanks for listening
Caroline