Recently I've learned about ADHD. I was browsing reddit, and came across someone describing themselves and I quickly realized I related 100% to this random person, and the others were suggesting he may have ADHD. So I began researching it myself, and am suspecting I may have had ADHD my entire life. I have always struggled with maintaining my attention on tasks, and as a kid I had a very difficult time maintaining my emotions, which just led to bullying so I just learned to keep everything to myself because of the constant fear of being made fun of. I joined the Marines out of high school, and definitely made some impulsive decisions during my time in, and dealt with bullying there too. I have a habit of making social situations awkward by saying something odd, and have done that all my life. I've always felt like a loser because of these things and it has affected my self image my whole life. I lost my job recently, which has left me stuck at home all the time, and I think that has been contributing to my depression.
Honestly this is the first time I have even addressed any of this and it is kind of overwhelming. I don't know what to ask or where to go. I would like to seek help for myself