Today did not start off well. I did not get up at my usual time because I was kept up most of the night by my dogs. Fine, whatever. I am a dog mom, I can deal. I wake up cranky and upset with myself for reasons out of my control, but that does stop the thought process of failure for not waking up on time. Regardless, I trudge on through my morning routine with somewhat ease and start my day.
I need to get my resume updated and redone. That's all the goal is today-resume. When it comes to looking for jobs I have to allow myself plenty of time, because I get so frustrated. I do everything I am "supposed" to do when looking/applying for a job and yet I don't have one?
All the while I am battling my anxiety and frustration my mom keeps coming into my room and interrupting my workflow. I can't get into the right headspace for my resume. First, it was to help vacuum, then it was to look at the dog's paw, then she came in to tell me that we need to get the house from out back and bring it around to the front of the house to wash off the patio... All this within an hour. Leave me ALONE!!
Needless to say, I have nothing done on my resume and feel extremely defeated. I want to yell at my mother but I am trying not to do that. She needs help because she has balance issues due to her stroke. Yet, at the same time, she says not to worry about her and to get on with my life and move out..... I get mixed signals from my family which doesn't help with my anxiety and frustration. My family is the biggest block to bettering my life.