I used to have lists written and in my head I don't know why they used to motivate me but now they depress me
I did ask the doc if I could increase my meds I take for OCD as they are antidepressants he said yes but I just slept more so I have stopped the extra
I don't feel as bad as I did but maybe you are right I should go back
Also I wonder if I want too much from life I have been in far far worse situations homeless huge debts affairs to name just a few
Now my life is get up wash up do the washing tackle some paperwork that's it!
On some days when people are here things go better
I have a pa I volunteer at the museum I go to bible study twice a week my nephew comes to garden.
The rest of the time I spend mostly in bed
I find it so hard to motivate myself with no one around
I feel so ungrateful I want to do more
When I am really busy I get worn out very easily
You are right maybe I should go back to the dr
Ps I have two lovely tortoises the bigger one even let's me scratch her under the chin she used to just hide
I had them since they were babies
I will play and see if I can post a pic for all my lovely new friends here
But don't get excited I will have to ask my son for help I expect and he is seldom around
K x
You have been through a lot and sounds to me like your going through mourning for your husband and empty nest syndrome without all your past experiences added to that. Having a family to care for is what life is about for a lot of women so what do they do when thats not there. They have to reinvent and make another one. Staying off the Valium its a nasty drug that hides our feelings and we need them. You are fighting for a life it comes over in your words so go and get it girl
Go back to your doctor ask for couselling and face up to what it is that you try to numb because it will not go away you have to face it and get rid of it.
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