I was in a serious relationship from 2009 to 2013 with a young man and I swore we would get married someday. However, while me and that person where together he got engaged in 2013 and married in 2014 to someone from another country and didn't tell me. I found out through fb. I was depressed for months, cried everyday and the worst thing was that I'm in university and almost failed all my courses for that year. It's now 2015 I still cannot let go of that guy, he pops up on social networks n we talk alot n I am honestly still hurting. He keeps saying he loves me and as soon as he's stable we will be together again and I should wait on him. For the life of me, I'm hoping n believe that we can be together again. But I know what I have been through with him. Through out the relationship we had, he cheated 3 times and he got a son and I still stay in the relationship cause he always tells me I'm the one and always seem to make up for the bad he's done. I want to let go cause I don't believe he can change but my heart says I love him. It's kills me every day to know that I've been there for so long and he just marry someone else and migrate. I'm depressed, having insomnia, sleep paralysis and it's not healthy because it is very hard to focus on school even tho I make good grades now but it is difficult. I am so broken and bitters. I feel so trapped because even when other guys express intrest in me I turn them down cause I feel like I'm still with him.
I've just joined this community n this is my very first post.