and continue study besides we preparing for gov.job. we lived like as best friend no any person believe that they are brother due to our lovely relation. he was very nice person for me in this world I am suffering from polio but due to him i never fell that i am handicap he help me very much. we went to watch movies and where i went he almost always with me. He was interested in cricket, cooking,making friend. he was very genius in all sector. before 2 years i got job in railway. I went on job but by brother still preparation for job. I talked to him daily asked how are you and your study. I always worried about his carrier. after some time he became ill i treated him to local doctor. But he became not well. than a tumor grow in his head. i was scared. but he is so jolly boy he tell me not worry brother it is nothing. than i went to Delhi in RML hospital for better treatment. doctor cheek it and said to FNC test which is dated on 6 march. unfortunately same time my new joining later arrived at home so i leave him at my elder brother who already lived in Delhi and come back home for paper work.after 3 days he suffered from fever and treated by other doctor. during this period he talk to me daily and always did comedy talk. on 5 march at night he went to hospital because he became serious even he talk to me in evening. on 5 o'clock I know socking news that his both kidney failed. i can't what i felt that time. I was cried so much in same position i rush for Delhi but when i was completed half way again i received message which is the worst for my whole life that he died on before dylesis. Now i am live not only for saying. I suppose i was already same time. I always think if i care him properly than it not happened. sometimes i think death is better than this life so for me right thing is suicide. He was not only brother for me besides he was like my best friend, son and everything. How i live without him. it is impossible.I loved him now loves and will love till my death.