In 2023, as my college was about to end, I planned to pursue a master’s degree abroad and started preparing for the IELTS. However, after completing my course, my parents did not allow me to go abroad, leaving me stuck and unsure of what to do next. To avoid a career gap, I enrolled in an online MBA program. Later, I learned medical coding and secured a job in that field.
During this time, I got an optometry job, which aligned with my undergraduate studies and offered a good salary. I accepted the position, but after joining, I was informed I had to work in Chennai. Eventually, they transferred me to another district that didn’t suit me, so I resigned. After that, I joined an optical shop in my hometown, but my duties were limited to opening the door and handling couriers, so I resigned again.
I decided to learn Flutter development to transition into the IT field. After completing the course, I attended several interviews, but most employers rejected me due to my optometry background. I then shifted my focus to HR jobs, attended numerous interviews, and finally got a job at a consultancy firm. However, the salary was only ₹12,000, and I had no savings. The work pressure affected my personal life, and I couldn’t spend time with my girlfriend.
Later, a friend, a businessman, asked me to join his new company as a manager. He had two businesses—glass manufacturing and plans for hardware—and I decided to join him. Initially, there was a lot of work, but eventually, I found myself sitting idle with no salary, as the hardware business never started. During this period, my girlfriend left me, which left me deeply depressed. I resigned and returned to my hometown.
Haunted by memories of my girlfriend, I told my parents I needed to go on a trip, but they revealed that we were burdened with significant debt. Now, I am working at an eye clinic in my hometown for ₹10,000 a month($100). I feel isolated, with no one to talk to, and I deeply miss her. I’ve been struggling for two years now.
Am I even using this right?
Constantly feel bored and empty, like life has no meaning. 
Family
this time i need advice :)
