So I’m 16 years old and I feel like there is something very wrong with me. For the past couple years I’ve noticed I’ve been struggling with some kind of depression that occurs almost regularly . Now I’m not the type to self diagnose but I’m hoping someone can give me some advice. These feelings I have no way of explaining but I want to be heard and I want to be helped really bad. I feel like there’s a really loud voice in my head telling me everything I fear, everything that I’ve done wrong or is wrong with me in everything I do. I’ve become insecure and I feel selfish for always talking about my problems. I’ve self harmed too many times around 10 times in total. I don’t do it for attention I legitimately feel release seeing my own wounds or blood. I try to cover them at all cost because being confronted, I don’t know what I’d say. I’m working on stopping and it’s not that much of an issue I guess. I cry often almost every other day for something. I’m in a good relationship but I’ve recently moved far and not returning Until June. Recently he’s been being unusually dry but that’s just one thing on my mind. I feel like he’s cheating or getting tired of me. I attempted suicide couple years ago but I forced myself to throw up after I took the pills. Now the only reason I stop myself from following through is that I don’t want to make my mother or family depressed. I have no friends where I live but I don’t miss my friends at home, I’d rather be alone or with my family or boyfriend. You guys will suggest seeking professional help of course but my parents don’t have the money, my mother won’t approve of antidepressants. I’ve tried to snap out of it many times. Can anyone give some advice ?
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Can Someone tell me what my problem is?
Hi Sophiabennett
I'm sure we can give some helpful advice and it would be helpful if you copy and paste your post in our 'Young Adult' forum, see you there
Chloe x
Sophiabennett , you'll find resources that are very helpful for you under 'Check this out' in the above forum, please do read them if you don't wish to chat.
Chloe
Hi,
Sorry to hear this. In terms of professional help, you can get this for free on the NHS. I did this recently (I completed a CBT (Cognitive Behavioural Therapy) course). Just make an appointment with your doctor and they should refer you to a specialist. They won't necessarily prescribe antidepressants, they didn't with me and your doctor shouldn't put you on them if you don't want to take them.
The 'Headspace' app is good for daily management too.
Am I a monster? What am I? 
Do I have depression? If I do how to get help plz. And also how to tell my mom, if I do.
Constantly feel bored and empty, like life has no meaning. 
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