I hate myself through and through.
I feel so sad and anxious all the time it makes me feel sick. I constantly let my mind flick to things which I'm disappointed in myself about or when times were better, and compare the situations. I ask questions to myself like 'how did you get here?' and every answer is 'because theres something wrong with you: this would never happen to anyone else'. This dialogue is forever on repeat. I can't take it. I look at other people all the time and think why can't I be like you - why am I so inadequate? I hate myself. Theres so many things id like to do better or be better. I used to be someone who loved going out weekly, I couldn't stay in. Id constantly be out doing something with friends. But now the only place I feel safe is my bedroom. What is wrong with me?