Depression and anxiety. Low mood swings

[mooshelley]

I have feelings of being unworthy and useless. I suffered a very big tragedy back n early may my 16 yr old took his own life. which seem to have taken over my whole life. It pulled down a large brick wall that I was hiding behind for years. Very bad child hood memories are forefront of my mind at present. I eventually broke in July not even coping as a carer. I also lost a 5 day old baby Dion in December 18 years ago. The feelings of guilt is terrible I blame my self because I see myself as a bad person. My eating is non exsistant I have to take supplements from my doctor. Most days I will around in a daze not knowing what to do with myself. I would very much like to chat to someone who has gone through what I am experiencing now to enable me to get a better understanding.