I am a staff nurse. I came to west wales to build a new life following a marriage break up. He was abusive in ways that do not leave bruises. I am a good nurse. Attitudes in the West are different here. Racism and bullying prevail. I challenged the dignity of an ethnic colleague who was being bullied. She left for London. She is happy. Result. I am leaving too as I feel I was made to suffer for raising the issue. I feel suicidal. Crying. Mood swings. Anxiety and depression. Starting all over again. Feeling alone. Uncertainty about the future. Tired from working all the time to fund the move home. If i could fall asleep and never wake up is all I can think about. I do not know what to do.