Over and Over Again....

[ToniaMarie35]

Does anyone feel like their in a cycle.....at one point you feel good and things are going good then boom, ten steps back with everything from pain, situation at work, your meds....I mean I know I'm not the only one. Been having an extremely hard time of things lately, crying bouts, anger...chronic fatigue than seems to get worse. Have tried a lot of things, including naturopath, been doing acupuncture....etc. Been on Effexor for awhile now, and a pretty high does at that....not sure if it's wearing off or it's just me having a low spell. It takes a lot to get out of bed sometimes, to go to work, to socialize due to the fatigue!!!! Any feedback would be lovely, or just someone who can relate to talk to....

[kenster1 Moderator]

hi toni I feel like you sometimes just going round in circles all the time.like you ive had many things in life happen that keeps me down but I keep fighting on hoping it gets better.somedays I'm on top of the world then boom feel like shit for days.good thing to do is wake up one day and say to yourself what little thing can I make better than the day before gradually things will get better.heres hoping for you.

[ToniaMarie35 in reply to kenster1]

Hi Kenny, and yes it does, for many years now....and it's mainly concerning my health and my job.....that's all I feel like I have been doing since I was a teenager, been fighting and fighting when others just seem to have all the luck or everything go their way, feels so unfair!!! Some of the meds haven't helped either, not just antis or anxiety pills, just meds in general. I really hope it does settle down someday, thnks, same wishes for you and everybody else out there that feels this way....

[kenster1 Moderator in reply to ToniaMarie35]

sometimes I look at the things my friends have and say why is that not me. I suppose 90 per cent is hard work 10 per cent luck.just seems some of us just never manage to get that piece of luck to push us forward.my meds keep things at bay so that's good.have you ever thought of doing absolutely nothing for a couple of weeks and just forget life and all its problems.that sometimes is the best remedy.

[ToniaMarie35 in reply to kenster1]

In general I don't get envious of people who have good health, little stress.....but I am my own advocate and have been trying to figure out what's going on(healthwise) for some time now. I'm not sure what to think of my meds anymore, and weening off sucks. As for taking a couple of weeks off, I can't afford it...have been off many times on sick leave, workers etc.

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Hi Tonia,

I'm a new one to the world of depression/anxiety related illnesses. In brief - 7 bereavements in 5 years, a very toxic (Now ex) girlfriend and the realization I am 43, live alone, no children despite the fact I have a wonderful new GF, I suddenly snapped a few weeks ago once I finished with my fathers estate and real life started kicking in again. Never thought it would be me, yet the signs were there all along. I'm experiencing exactly what you are describing: 1 step forward then 2 steps back then 3 steps forward then 4 steps back. I'm guessing it is par for the course.

Unfortunately, I can relate already to your feelings and realize I've had these feelings all along, slowly getting worse and worse. I only hope I haven't left it too late to get the help I need.

I'm supposed to be away this weekend, travelling to Sweden to visit some friends but I feel I just cant make the journey. Hopefully, I'll get through it with my meds and some other self help methods.

Anyway, just thought I would share with you and hope it gives some comfort, no matter how little, that there are many of us feeling the same thing. Maybe, just maybe the scientists will get to the bottom of this one day so we can all benefit and recover quickly or better still, stop it ion the first place.

All the best for now

[ToniaMarie35]

Hi Joner:

I'm glad to hear from you, and I'm sorry to hear that u have had such unfortunate luck for so long now, what are u taking and the dose if you don't mind me asking? I can relate to the toxic ex, but mine was messing with my mind after we were broke up, the time we got back together also, done alot of damage to my confidence also....never had much of a backbone I guess, was harder to let go because he was my first love.

I have been on this roller coaster ride for many years to end up with a backlash of breakdowns which makes up for the positive moments, had one major breakdown which I really hope I never, ever have to endure again!!! And to let you know, you are not alone and it's never too late!!! Have u tried meditation and counseling? I have found both of these great and I always need and fall back on them...exercise is a great stress relief also.

I am glad you have find a wonderful girlfriend, does she know what's going on with you? And I'm sure you will be fine on this trip, taking your mind off things even for just a day or more can be very self healing sometimes. At least you get to go on a trip, I haven't been anywhere In many years lol. Enjoy, relax....and I'm here if you need to talk, all of us are.

Take care,

Tonia

[StephPeer]

Hi Tonia,

I'm new to this forum and was encouraged to read that there is some other people that are going through what I'm going through too. Thank you for sharing.

I'm afraid I can't be much help because I have only recently been diagnosed, but I just wanted to let you know how relieved I am to feel not alone in this because there are people in my life who just don't seem to get it. Totally relate to what a big difficulty it is to get out of bed and get ready for the day. And then, one day, it is no problem at all and you think, "Thank goodness!", but then it starts all over again...

Thanks again for sharing.