I haven't posted in a long time, and am ashamed that I am the definition of the term "yo-yo" dieter. I seem to struggle with establishing new habits, and the weight loss one has definitely been the most trying of my habits to change.
I realized what my trigger is. Stress eating. AND (sometimes) happiness eating. I mean, for goodness sake, why do BOTH situations trigger an urge to binge/snack/indulge/treat myself???
Anyway, I recommenced my weight loss efforts around end of November and it's going well, down nearly 3kg. But last night, after a difficult night of parenting, I sat in my room and realized I can't rush to my normal array of treats to sooth my stress. The loop of stress eating, and it causing me to feel ill with the added weight creeping on, told me it's a vicious cycle I just CANNOT afford myself to fall into again. The reality of that....just got too much...and I cried.
It's true...all the added weight gain was making me feel ill and my body was protesting. HARD. I had to listen and knew the changes had to be made.
Luckily my body is very responsive and I do not need to implement many changes in order to lose the weight. And I am still allowing a small treat within my calorie budget. But still, it's a weird sort of feeling of grievance I am experiencing.
I came back to this forum in the hope that diarizing my thoughts will give me another outlet to release the stress I am holding. Let's see.