It has been two weeks since my declaration and I haven't lost a pound. I think I have developed an eating disorder because I am very pressured at home (studious family atmosphere LOL). I eat well during the day, every meal is balanced & low-cal, and then after 8 pm, I just can't resist a value pack of nuts, and sometimes cookies (oof) when studying.
My clothes from 2 months ago feel tight. 😭
I tell myself to stop eating every day but I feel like I can't stop, particularly at night. The worst thing is that I feel like I still can lose weight because I've done it before so I eat what I want. There has been the sole one day that I lost 4 lbs by restricting calories (I know this weight might all be water content, but still makes me happy). The next day I felt like "Hey losing weight is easy" and munched on like 400g of cookies. It's scary, and I did it before I realized it, and immediately I looked up "how to vomit what you had just eaten", but I failed because I have never vomited in as long as I have memory (for real). This might be a sign of health but it troubles me at unintentional binge eating times like this.
It maintains my weight because I have sports practice a few days a week. I realize if I stop snacking at night/on weekend mornings, I will lose weight HARD because my practices are hard!!
Again I have gained 14 lbs in 2 months, and 11 lbs in the 3 months before the 2 months. My muscle mass hasn't increased much. I know mentioning this is making me guilty, but this has to be constantly on my mind, or I'll gain more! I hope I won't develop an eating disorder.
My birthday is next month. I have to lose some pounds to look good in pictures 😸
Also, I will try to sleep earlier (before 10) for health and metabolism purposes. Today I stayed up for test reviews...I should have done it over the weekend so I could sleep at 10 today 😢
By the way, I love this platform where nobody knows me in real life (maybe) and I can confess and reflect on my bad habits. It is very helpful to reflect once in a while.
Can I do this? Let's see what happens in the next 1~2 weeks. 😼
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2024 January
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It starts a little later, I skipped the intro, they are talking about a program from last year.
I remember in one YouTube someone said that their phycologist told them to always carry a bag of cooked sweet potatoes in your purse and every time when you can't avoid eating something crap, eat 1 or 2 sweet potatoes instead.
That might look like a lot of carbs, but I believe me the crap has much more calories, oil and sugar even if it looks tiny.
Hi , you sound like you’re rather going around in self-destructive circles. Firstly, can you just not buy the sweet things that you’re reaching for? Not always easy with family living, I know. Secondly, can you get your family on-side with how miserable and desperate you’re feeling. And thirdly perhaps you’re not eating as well as you could be leading to hunger binges at night. I had a great success with low carb, high protien and a bit higher fat than usual -lots of plans and ideas online but basically count your carbs and keep them below 120g a day. But the real key for me was that it was a 12 week plan -which seemed much more do-able than the ’dietting forever’ feeling when you want to lose weight.
We’ve recently had two very unsettled years and I have gained a bit so am planning to do 12 weeks low carb to shift it - I have tighter clothes too. I use a treadmill rower and weights three times a week but as they say you can’t outrun a bad diet.
Anyway hope that might offer some support -if I can get my head around this forum I think it will be helpful . Bon chance, to us both.
Thanks for telling me that! Guess what, I was struggling with whether I should grab some walnuts or not, but I opened my account and saw your comment. I rethought and I ate well today, I had one and only one bagel, some yogurt, fruits, salmon, veggies, and whole wheat cookies (a little unhealthy, have to cut that out). So I will NOT snack tonight. Bon courage!
Lokiweihtloss. Hello. First I believe your being to hard on yourself. Remember you did lose weight before. Think back to what you were doing back then to achieve it. Was it healthy? I'm not a doctor but I feel you are becoming obsessed with your weight. Remember I know we want to look good but we also want to be healthy. That's the main thing.Racquel🌞xx
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I know mentioning this is making me guilty, but this has to be constantly on my mind, or I'll gain more! I hope I won't develop an eating disorder. 
Just had my end of week 1 beginning of week 2 weigh in
Kick starting my weight loss battle
