Morning all, For years now I have devoted my life to my family! there have been some upsets along the way, "some self inflicted" and others well beyond my control or completely unforeseen, as some of you will be aware from my previous posts. I have only had three jobs in my working career which covers a 40 year span (this September), they have been seamless without a day unemployed.
Again as some of you may recall I joined Health unlocked last year as I felt it was time to really start looking after myself and lose a couple of stones, to get back to my ideal weight of around 13 stone, so off I went following the 12 week plan and was making steady progress, then just before Christmas last year I gained severe pains in my right hand which turned out to be the onset of Osteoarthritis and set me back with my weight loss training plan, until I could eventually get the cortisone injection needed to relieve the pain. With this done and some considerable time passing I came back here and was a "Re-start", again I got back on track and started losing weight and lost around 6 lbs, which I was pleased with. At the end of July we went on our family holiday which was brilliant, and upon my return had put on just over a 1lb in weight, which I could accept (Greek food and beer for two weeks), so weighed in last week with Tuesday Trimmers and wasn't feeling to bad.
But since getting back off holiday if it could go wrong it has, the boiler in the house packed in, my Dad was taken into hospital 450 miles away from where I live (he's now home in Newcastle), HMRC now say I'm not entitled to 'Child benefit' this year or last year and must pay it all back, even though I sorted it out with them last year with official letters from my kids school and college head teachers, my wife and I don't appear to be as close as we once were and we only seem to make small talk,so loneliness is setting in. And finally for some reason around 50 of my garden pond fish have been dieing off over a period of two weeks.
Due to this my focus has not been on losing weight, in fact to be honest I've just though to myself, "whats' the point???" yes I understand the long term health benefits, but no matter how I try to ensure my family are safe secure and provided for, and everything I do and have done all my life has been above board, I still get the rough end of the stick, and don't appear to be able to break the cycle, as everything that happens is random, or unforeseen.
So I'm sorry to say that this week I let the Tuesday Trimmers down, by putting on another 2lbs, and why you may say has this happened, well it because I can't see the point in my efforts, as all of the above happened over the last few weeks I have visited the Cake cupboard an more occasions that I would care to mention, I have broken my limit of only having a beer on a Friday night with my mates, and I haven't been in my gym since coming home on the 7th of August.
I'm hoping that I can snap out of this, and get back on track again but I can'see anything positive and nearly every minute of the day I'm wondering What's Next?
Hope you are all having a more successful time than myself at the moment.