Double edged..

Hi all, catching up with you all today ( seems like an eternity since I last logged on). I have been flat out at work (6 1/2 days last week) and by the time I left at midday yesterday I felt wretched. After a great Friday night shift, Saturday and Sunday nights were appalling. I have just started a course of steroids too as my asthma is playing up a bit, this is usual for the time of year when summer starts to give way to autumn, but I have to be extra careful now as my right lung is very damaged ( when I had all my surgery a couple of years ago I also had cardio-thoracic surgery) My workload isn't helping the situation, nor the fact that when I do get chance to rest I can't shut down. Aaannnnyway, the steroids have me in their grip and I know that I will put on weight, the course is 10 days instead of the usual 5. I am resigned to the weight gain, won't lie and say it isn't bothering me because it is, but my health comes first and being fat and alive is better than a thin corpse!!! It is frustrating knowing that I have been doing so well to lose nearly 2 stone and that a big portion of that will go back on and then be extra hard to get off again. Just stopping the steroids doesn't mean the weight just comes back off unfortunately.

This is life though, and life has a habit of throwing dirty great spanners at times. BUT, I will wash off the dirt this time and recover from the 'bruises' they have caused. Food will not be my shield and weapon of choice anymore. IT ISN'T MY WEAPON OF CHOICE ANYMORE.

Well it is time to go into work and do another 6 hours ( yep, today is supposed to be my day off, but social workers/ psychologists etc... tend to like to work in daylight hours). I will also be revising a diet for a meds dependent diabetic so hopefully this will help my resolve to stay on track myself.

Have a super day everyone, I will be catching up on your recent posts when I get home this evening ( yay, actually get to sleep in my bed tonight!!). Needing lots of positivity in posts to spur me on, no doom and gloom, lol. 😜

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Hi Shellie, it's only 10 days, so hopefully the steroids can't do too much damage, and feeling better after the course will hopefully put you in a good position for getting back on track again. Hope you get some much needed rest after today's shift x

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Hi Ruth, I have switched some of the food I eat and cutting a few calories each day in a bid to minimise any damage. I usually put 7-10lb on with steroids and get some quite strong cravings, but I am determined this time if weight goes on it won't be for the lack of effort to try and stop it. Lots of fish and veggies mostly. 😊

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That's a pretty hefty weight gain for 10 days. If you can achieve less than that, then you've done well. Hope you don't get bored of veggies. By the way I tried roast cauliflower last night thanks to your suggestion, which was delicious, roasting really brought the flavour out. Also made a really low cal pesto with leftover frozen salad leaves (which I've been collecting when they start to go 'limp'), a few (10) pine nuts and the 'nutritional yeast' I told you about before. It was very green, but fooled me enough to believe it was proper pesto (and went well with the cauliflower and other roast veg!)

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I ordered the nutritional yeast online, the local Holland and Barrett don't sell it apparently ( I was sure I saw it in there, must have been a diff. health food store). It hasn't arrived yet, but i've looked up some good recipes for when it does. 😊

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Hi Shellie,

Sounds like it's been hell on wheels work wise!!

Sorry to hear you've had to take steroids, try to stay positive in mind.Yes the weight will happen but it will not stop your journey and yes honey we don't want a skinny corpse, but the warm honest humerus person you are 💋

You are so right food is not weapon of choice anymore !!! Stay strong stay brave and you will win the battle.

Lots of love

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Come hell or high water I will be sticking like glue to my calories this week and next, counting every single one! I am in work tomorrow and Thursday nights then having the weekend off, I have cancelled/moved all appointments until next week. Today saw off quite a few obligations in the work diary too. I am even leaving the cloakroom decorating. Time to heed my bodies warnings, something I have a habit of ignoring and just cracking on. Hope your week is going well flossie 😊