so like I mentioned earlier this morning that I had a self refectory moment, where I found ME asking myself... what now? whats going to be different this time and what stemmed my other failures...
and I pondered about this for a good half day and as much as the answers hurt and were uncomfortable to hear/ face, I had to listen to them, I had to face them, if of course I wanted THIS time to be different from all those other attempts.
>Firstly, I noted that from all my other attempted lifestyle changes and I realised that I always drew from other people, I never listened to MY body! I always used someone else's diet, If it worked for her it will work for me, right? NO WRONG! We are all made differently and what works well for the other might not work so well for you. So I would get frustrated when her diet was not working all so well for me, I wouldnt see results and I got impatient... I then realised that, NO its not about who's diet you follow, but what works best for you, what does it for you and your body! SOOOO i have concluded that things have to be different this time, Its not about Belinda's diet, its not about Maggies diet... its about MY diet! its MY body, MY life, MY rules. so I call the shots now!
>Secondly I noted that I lacked motivation, I would tell people that 'I am unmotivatable (if there is such a word!)' no one or anything could motivate me!!! so I took it upon myself to motivate MYSELF!! by watching Youtube videos EVERY SINGLE DAY of people who have been where I have been and they have succeed! if they can do it so can I! and I've downloaded a song that gets me pumped up and ready to go every morning, one that makes me get off my feet!!! I am going to be my motivation, whether I like it or not!!
>Thirdly I am going to STOP thinking about the future! how I would look when I'm healthier, how I would be able to dress a certain way... I need to stop living in the future and start living in the present NOW, because sometimes I get too excited about being a certain size that when I do not attain that size in a certain period I give up!! so NO MORE OF THAT!!
>Lastly, I am going to enjoy EVERY SINGLE bit of this journey if it is the last thing I do!!
THIS TIME THINGS HAVE GOT TO BE DIFFERENT, THIS TIME THINGS WILL BE DIFFERENT...MARK MY WORDS!