I recently read an online article about people with chronic illness being wrong judged or accused of 'faking' their illness and the negative impact this has on their mental well-being, always having to prove their illness.
It's difficult striking a balance of how you feel, how you want to feel and how people judge you are feeling (or maybe I'm just over thinking it?).
And this goes back to the many times asked question of how to respond to the dreaded 'How are you?'
I'm speaking for myself when I say; you're generally positive and you don't want people to think you're a big moaner but you also don't want them to think you're 100% well and lazy, lethargic or deliberately slacking off.
In my case, I just avoid situations which will highlight my weaknesses or I put a big brave (ruddy red) face on to keep up with the crowd.
The same article came with a picture of some make-up with a caption of 'How are you faking it today?'.
This also hit a chord with me, because I do always put a bit of make up on before I leave the house, concealing all the give away signs of restless nights and toxic drugs.
But then again, I would never leave the house without makeup before, it just takes a little longer now.
A couple of months ago, I was offered a job but I had to decline it, because I had omitted to tell them about my illness during the recruitment process and it was subject to a health screen and I just didn't want to go there for fear of rejection.
At the same time, in an almost parallel existence, I found was exaggerating how some of my symptoms, were affecting me, to my doctor to get them to take notice.
So, I was wondering to what extent others have to go to, when proving or hiding their illness?