I am finding myself feeling very low and really struggling to kick myself on. I am really surprised and disappointed with me I have always been a very positive person motivating others but for me I am gradually losing that push. I'm having side effects from the hormone tablet I am taking for the cancer but they are similar to those of the other drugs I take. The nausea I feel is such a nuisance I have to eat to give something in my stomach for the pills also for the diabetes yet I start to heave and heave then unable to eat but have to make myself.
A week on Monday my husband is going into hospital to have his knee replaced should be in for about a week trying to make lists for what I need to do. Writing this is highlighting to me just how much I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and get cracking but that's part of the problem I have always been very active but now!!!!!!!.
I miss very much just going out meeting people helping people but it is necessary to adjust to that.
Sorry reading this I have seen enough I expect you may feel the same.
I will focus on my husband and his needs for the next few weeks and work out how I get to the hospital with my wheelchair and oxygen I know I can do it. Friends are very kind in that way I am very lucky. Many do not live nearby but telephone contact is also there.
I will be known as the plastic bag lady I am putting the taxi fare for each day in little bags so I know I have got that he wants me to go to see him which I can understand.
If you have managed to stay with reading this well I think you need a reward of a nice tea, coffee etc.