I'm sure that, like me, many of us have hospital/consultant/doctors appointments-enough to fill the whole house eighteen million times over, well it seems like it anyway! The main question, that is not always asked is, how do you actually feel? Are there times when, despite 'bad' results you feel fine/great and other times, when results are 'wonderful' and you feel like sh.., no erm, f.., wait a minute...Well not good anyway! Let me guess, Headachy- not helped by the tummy ache/constipation, come to think of it general aches, arms, legs, feet (chest feeling like someone's sitting on it), itchy all over, sweaty/smelly, and all of this is without the fact that you have been sick twice that morning. Am I getting close? Yes thought so! Never the less you still got up,showered, shaved, strained-hoping to 'go'- got dressed and had breakfast. Added a paracetamol tablet, or two, to your morning medication lit a cigarette, if you smoke that is, and got on with the day.
The real question is this do you feel 'dragged down' by all this or, rather like me, happy to still be alive? It is quite a question, I know, and does depend, to a very large extent, on your personal point of view. I know that this getting a bit philosophical, something that I don't 'do' well but It is I think one to be considered. I had a kidney transplant, in July 2013, something I am very, very, very grateful for- it has transformed my life-I no longer have to go for dialysis three times a week- in this respect a little 'gut pain' is not a problem. Sorry to 'ramble on' a bit, A BIT!!!! It's not an easy thing to try to ask/explain, well not to me anyway!
I would be interested in other view, maybe not quite as long/convoluted as mine perhaps?
Thanks for 'listening' AndrewT