Hey all, hope you all had a nice weekend.
This is a tough one, my son Harrison has found it difficult to settle at school & like most children he likes to make his friends laugh. He's a comedian!
His low mood has caused a concern for all of his teachers. He's 13 years old & I am aware of his mixed emotions & hormones but the saddest part about it is. He's been extremely low because of.. "my health"
We normally talk about anything & everything. But hes so fearful that something bad is going to happen to me. He thinks he's going to get a call to say I have died... 😭😭
If it effects me.. it effects him. & to know he's so afraid makes me feel terrible., he's failing in all his classes, & the only thing he's interested in is me..
i feel like it's my fault.. & I've failed as a mother.
He's been seeing a councillor at school once a week, & today I have to go & see his form teacher. My illness has been a battle for me but also it's been a scary time for Harrison. I think I need to put on a brave face from now on & show him that I can play football with him, I can walk for miles to a grassy green spot lay back & look up at the sky. Like we used to. I can go into town & enjoy a shopping spree we can go out to dinner & I will eat all of my meal.
I'm emotional today because harry/Harrison is my universe & i do not want him suffering because of me.. the quicker I get to Birmingham the better because being here in this room, waiting & wondering baring a heavy load on my shoulders & feeling like Harrison's worst nightmare.
If anyone else has been through or are going through something like this any comment would be most appreciated. ♥️
From a loving mother to another x