I do understand your dilemma....feel the same as you. I too am very anxious about my liver. I felt I had to make a decision which was against what I wanted to do for the sake of my body which was running out of control and I was getting scared and therefore my judgement was affected. I now know the meaning of 'while the balance of her mind was disturbed'.
My thyroid just flipped and pretty quickly got out of control....almost certainly through mis-diagnosis. (Although looking back I realise I was experiencing some problems at the end of 2011 - however because my Mother was dying I thought it was stress-related due to that and I could cope.) I have posted my story before...so will be brief.
I am diagnosed 'enlarged multi-noduled goitre with isolated T3 toxicosis'...never been on any meds just 6-monthly checks....managing well with herbal supps (GreenLife). Lots of stress/trauma for a few years and when I went to docs for a re-check because I was having pals and was very anxious - I was told I was not due a check-up....I was referred to an Endo though - who, in turn did not run bloods....just said I should consider RAI or anti-thyroids. If only I had insisted on bloods perhaps I could have foreseen something about to happen. Everyone I saw and myself, thought I was stressed because of my Mother's illness/death...and because I was on no meds....nobody felt there was anything too worrying.
Anyway...a series of very scary debilitating panic attacks had me at my gp's surgery. I was told I had to do something quickly....and I knew that as I was losing weight very fast. (In the end I lost 14 kilos....in about 6 weeks.) I took pui initially as I thought this was a better option because I had read it was better if conversion was an issue. Wrong! Had a really bad reaction within a month and my liver tests showed that...but again medical people just dismissed it all. Really bad session over a weekend and an emergency doctor told me to come off all meds...which I did cold turkey. Wrong! Amazed I'm here to tell the tale.
So...long story short....the anti-thyroid caused raised liver levels. As well.....it was shown that I had a gallstone and surgery the only option. Had no idea I had one....absolutely no indication.
No surgery until thyroids under control....I had to take the Carbi and if I became an emergency then I would be at a very high risk and without the Carbi surgery might be refused! By this time I am so poorly - in pain - and so hyper I just want everything to stop and be normal.
I gave myself a month to get the liver tests back within range again and then started the Carbi.
So....I have always refused the higher dose of Carbi - using Bugleweed as well as Motherwort (palps) and Lemon Balm (anxiety)....which was helping slowly. However....the hyper state and worry and the gb problem - I just kept getting myself into a state. I took the Carbi more as a back-up in case I decided I had to go ahead with gb surgery.
I only ever took 15mg of Carbi a day...reduced to 10 and now 5mg. Fortunately my Endo is happy for me to monitor what I do re dosage.
I didn't like the propananol. I did have headaches to start with when I began the Carbi. It did make me feel sick, bruising was more evident and I did get a couple of mouth ulcers. On 5mg I am fine and I am optimistic that I will be able to work only with the Bugleweed. All this started in April of this year and I was initially told I was looking at a minimum of 18 months to get thyroid within range again....so I did well to do so within 6 months. My next test is in April and I am going to go ahead and have an interim private test in a couple of weeks - so I can monitor that I am ok.
As you have liver problems then I can see why you are reluctant to start the Carbi....so you might like to look at Bugleweed.
And, because of my own story, I can only emphasize that whilst you get the thyroid running normally again...take extra special care of yourself and avoid stress/worry at all costs.
A p.s. because of the waiting game...I have been able to stabilise the gb with acupuncture and herbs.....both of which I am sure have also helped to bring back into control the thyroid and also support the liver whilst on the Carbi.
Apologies for the ramble but hopefully my case illustrates how what you really want to do might just all go pear-shape because of life's events.