So my journey started May 2016 I lost my mother aged 28.
After months of excruciating grief I got a terrible virus (labrynthitis) in December last year which by January hadn't gone.
In January 2017 I got a dissociation disorder. This presented itself as derealisation. It's hard to explain but it's basically like looking at the world underwater or as if one is drugged. Also describe it like not really feeling like I'm here.
march 2017 I got a call saying I had sub-clinical hypothyroidism as a result of hashimotos and a TSH of 5.4
Since then I've had endless therapy, therapy for anxiety and for grief and NO ONE can help me get rid of the derealisation. It's ruining my life.
All the while the BEST my tsh has been is 4.8 which docs think is a "good safe level"..... they won't test for my t3 or anything else so I am on a waiting list for NHS endo. Not feeling hopeful after some of the stories I've read from other NHS patients. And I cannot afford to pay for private healthcare or blood tests as I'm not well enough to work.
Has anyone else had a dissociation disorder and recovered? Is it possible my dissociation is due to my levels never being low enough?
Now 30 I don't want to live with this anymore I can just about bare the pain from the thyroid problems but the mental distortion is making life not worth living.
Any advice or knowledge on this would be hugely appreciated!!