Hi everyone, this is veering off topic slightly but I have no-one I can talk to about this. My Dad had an endoscopy yesterday and found out he has a lump, I think in his oesophagus. It will be up to 2 weeks before we get the results of the biopsy but I'm just a mess at the thought that we might lose him. My Mum has asked me not to say anything to my kids (14 and 10) yet but I'm struggling yet the thought of their reactions is just too horrible as they are close to their Grandad. It's almost exactly 2 years to the day we found out my Brother had a brain tumour (which so far is in remission) but it was the stress of that (I think) that brought on my hypothyroidism so I'm also scared of making myself ill again. It's been such a crap 2 years and I had such high hopes for this one and now I'm just gutted, I feel physically sick. I love my Dad so much and I don't know what we'll all do without him I know I'm jumping the gun but it is looking highly likely that it's cancer.
Sorry for the depressing post but my Mum and Dad don't want anyone else knowing until they have the results, not even my brother so I have no-one to talk about it with.