Hi guys, feeling really down at the moment and needing some advice. I was diagnosed as hypo last August (not knowing it was hereditary as mum is hypo) and from lots of reading have found links to various symptoms I have been suffering over the years, including thinking I had Postpartum Depression 6 years ago, but now think it is possible that it was pregnancy that brought on the hypothyroidism. The brain fog and tiredness is immense, my periods have worsened, my moods are like a rollercoaster and I keep getting swollen lymph under armpits and groin during my periods, I ache so much and the list goes on.
After feeling sick as a dog when I first started taking levothyroxine (I now take at night and don’t feel sick with them now) I’m now feeling even worse than when first diagnosed. I have never felt so low, I’m tearful about the strangest things or nothing and I could write a list over an A4 page of the range of niggly (and not so niggly) things that are happening to my body. Anyway, friends and family convinced me to actually write this list and take it to the GP prior to my next routine blood test. I burst into tears at the GP (not like me AT ALL) he widened the range of tests and said we’ll do nothing until the results come back. When getting the bloods done I saw on the screen he had written “long list of symptoms, mostly related to stress”.
My results came in today and my GP has left me confused. My T4 is 9.0 and TSH is 16.89. He said at the appointment that the results look like I might need to increase my meds but is more concerned about the range of symptoms I shared last time (most of which could be related to hypothyroidism – and of course many other conditions). The upshot is, he is convinced I am stressed and has told me to continue with the same dose of 25 levo and has referred me to a councillor/therapist to uncover what is causing my stress! I am so angry. I sat there in disbelief. Whilst I am pleased he is not taking the results alone as an indicator of anything, what on earth does he think will be solved? He tried to explain how symptom I has was stress related, even knee pain I have had since I was 15 and have long since given up on getting a GP to take seriously. I tried to make an appointment and they told me there aren’t any for at least two months, keep phoning once a week to see if any become available. What am I supposed to do in the meantime? I quit my position as head of department and have gone down to 4 days a week in the last two tears, if anything this is the least stressed I’ve felt in a long time.
I’m sorry to go on for so long. I really don’t know what to do now. Am I supposed to feel this way forever? Should I just accept it? Do I have to jump through the hoops of seeing a councillor and then getting referred to a “Mood course” for 6 months and endure my body and emotions and non-cooperative brain forever now? Don’t get me wrong, I am not dismissing the great work and need of therapists and councillors. Maybe they will discover something about me that I hadn’t realised, but I really don’t think this is a solution. Could someone please tell me if I’m missing the point?