I have been diagnosed with an under-active thyroid and only recently began treatment and I have been doing plenty of research and trying to get well informed. I seem to be able to find out about many things biologically, but there doesn't seem to be much about the emotional side.
I find that my mood can be completely ruined over basically nothing in a matter of seconds, and then I feel ridiculously alone because I feel like none of my family or friends can understand why I get upset or emotional the way I do. I have also found that certain things that never really bothered me a few years ago, like being around young children, has become something I simply can't tolerate.
Many of my family and friends have young children, and I would never say that I hate children or anything, but honestly the anticipation of being around them or just being there gets me so irritable and stressed out. This makes me feel even worse because I can't help how I feel, so then I feel guilt ridden because I feel like this makes me a bad person. I've tried to explain that I can't stay around them for long because I just get stressed and I tried explaining that I can't help getting worked up - but I think people just think I am being horrible. I still feel drained and exhausted a lot of the time, so I can't keep up with all the physical demands of playing with them for hours.
I just want to know if people have felt the same, or similar about different situations? I feel like I am not helping myself because I am getting upset thinking this all makes me a bad person. People make me feel like - what kinda of women, ill or not, does not want to be around their nephews, nieces and god children all the time. I just feel like a monster for wanting time to myself and to try and regain a relationship with my partner. After all, we have been under strain with everything. I feel smothered, stressed and rather fed up with all the expectations placed on me.
I am so sorry for the rant, and please no harsh comments. I already feel awful as it as. Maybe some advice or personal experiences? Thanks.