From the last time I posted in here, which was roughly 4 weeks ago until now I had been very sick & on Monday morning I got another blood test to check my thyroid. I had those horrible suicidal thoughts again & of course I did harm myself. I took 3 overdoses. However, the first one I cannot remember about, the second time, the ambulance and police came to my door & when I was allowed home, which was just a few days later I went to the chemist & bought more tablets, which were buy over the counter sleeping tablets.
I am not well - However, I am better now compared to what I was. It's the darn cycle that is making me go cuckoo! And I also have a low active thyroid gland which is not helping either.
The Saturday morning I went to the chemist to buy more sleeping tablets the Home Treatment team from the Mental Health called the police because I was not at home. I was away in town buying tablets because I was still feeling so low from the first time I took the overdose, which was a week earlier. (This was three to four weeks ago)
I was so desperately low. I was going to post in here but then I got to the point where life was not worth it anymore.
It is the cycle that is doing all this to me. And this happens to me quite often. My anti-depressants have been increased which are Vensir.
I'm just waiting on the blood results coming through to me. I am also being referred back to the gynecologist too. He said he would remove my ovaries in 6months time but I am thinking now he might do it sooner rather than later.....