why....

[jenrio]

oh i wonder why i got sore lips

tongue seems big and am losing hair,

must be aging, so they said

but no i said i am sorry but im only forty.

the color of my hair is turning gray

my body strength is leaving me

my knees aching, i feel like eighty

my eyes so dry and oh so itchy

funny how i feel, no one seems to care

it is sure not easy for me who suffer

my dandruff stays and has been for years

not helped by shampoos and all those conditioners

i suffer migraines since 20 years

it started in my college days

i used to be so skinny used to be tiny

but now is totally a different story

i had bouts of depression

thanks to those who had compassion

my world seemed bleak and gloomy

even if things seem funny

i developed psoriasis, my skin so itchy

now i am used to it doesn't bother me

yes at times my elbow bleed

who cares i said i'll hide it under my shirt

i cant drink milk coz it makes me bloated

i suppose one can say im intolerant of milk

i tried lactose enzyme few years ago

but then it didn't really do.

my arms and legs use to be hairy

now they are gone it makes me weary

gone is my youth and vitality

it is also taking away my memory

once i developed cough and colds

during that time it was so cold

i had it for about 6 weeks

and it left me feeling so weak

sometimes i sleep like no tomorrow

at times im full sorrow

i fell like im a yoyo going to and fro

i ask myself why, why is this so.

i am irritable and moody

i feel sorry for my family

just hope they will forgive me

and believe that at the moment i am not me.

[Hidden]

Hello Jenrio, a perfect picture in poetic verse - with a real bitter sweet quality, in that it reminds us we are not alone with this, thank you!

[Sam75]

So many of us will relate to your verses, the sore lips bit too....I thought it was just me got that

Lips feel burnt! lots of aloe vera, makes little difference....but it does evenualy go

Thanks for your poem X

[marram]

This is very moving, good to see that despite how ill you are, you can still write this. It can help us to see what others are going through.

Marie XXXX

[Hidden]

Jenrio, surely this is about me!

Joking aside, it is lovely and so true.

How come we still have our sense of humour? Thank goodness we do. Xx

[jenrio]

thanks to all your comments. i think this is why gps dont listen coz despite what we feel we still have time for sense of humor.

[StNic]

Don't worry unduly, I've been through most (but not all) your symptoms although not necessarily at the same time.

The mouth symptoms sound like a fungal infection, possibly from an infected tooth? Mine cleared up with a garlic mixture (can't remember the name) in about a month.

The psoriasis was the plaque type which turned out to be connected with an old injury to the lumber spine (carrying very heavy things in the wrong way!) and, once i got the back in good order (osteopathy or chiropractic) that cleared up - made life much easier.

I gave up milk years ago and various symptoms (digestive, headache etc) just went. Some of the headaches were migraine (controllable with Migraleve, just about) whilst others were "ordinary".

I got a cold (not flu') at the beginning of this year. It cleared up, as usual, in about a week but the malaise, weakness and residual cough is only just, 6 months later, reducing. I've talked to several people who have had a similar experience; there seems to be a nasty cold going around. I haven't found anything which speeds the clear-up (yet!) but am slowly regaining energy.

Not surprised that you're a bit depressed, all that lot at once - and seeming so intractable - is fairly horrid.

Hope there may be some useful suggestions here and may you soon feel better.

By the way, keep writing in verse anyway!

[graeme]

Hahaha, you should post this to ALL GP surgeries.x