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A heavy heart at the loss of my dog, Stevie

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She was my light. She was my life. She was my time waster. She was my reason for going for a walk and I think she was my reason for living..

My little girl Stevie died on Monday at noon after getting ill on Sunday morning I rushed her to the vet. They kept me waiting for four hours. They took her in saying her condition was not serious even though she was losing blood from both ends. I was called the next morning and asked to go in. I held her. They took her away. She went into a cardiac arrest, and we had to make the decision to let her go

I know this is not Metastatic Breast Cancer related, but it’s my reason for living related. She’s all I had. Of course I have my daughter and I have her little dog who will be my granddaughter always. But Stevie was something else.

RIP my little angel.

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Totheriver

So sorry to hear this💕. Keep her memories 💕

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Timtam56 in reply to Totheriver

Thank you.

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Kerryd22

I’m so sorry to read of your loss. It’s very hard to lose our pets. There’s always ugly crying involved. 😢

I know there’s nothing I can do or say to help but know that I’m thinking of you.

All the best

Kerry

Virtual hug.
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Timtam56 in reply to Kerryd22

Thanks so much. Yes. It’s so hard to know what to say isn’t it. But I feel the hug.

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jersey-jazz

I am so sorry for you and am crying for your loss. XXX OOO

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Timtam56 in reply to jersey-jazz

Awe. Thank you so much I didn’t mean for anyone to feel pain. You’re so kind. ❤️

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Susan1953

for your loss. Our precious pets are not with us long enough.❤️

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Timtam56 in reply to Susan1953

It’s the only thing pets don’t do right. Isn’t it? They don’t stay long enough. I never thought I’d lose her before I went. She was only 4 years old.

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awesome4ever

Oh Timtam I am just gutted to read about your sudden loss of Stevie. I think I can easily say that every time you posted a picture of him it gave us ladies a smile. The loss of a beloved pet hits the heart hard and you need time to grieve. Sending you a big virtual hug. Take care my friend.

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Timtam56 in reply to awesome4ever

Thank you so much. And Stevie was a little girl. Ha ha!

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Iwasborntodothis

I am so sad to read this. I know I looked forward to pictures of your little angel. It's not all about MBC here - its about supporting each other. Sending you a big hug.

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Timtam56 in reply to Iwasborntodothis

Thank you. Yes. And animals give us such a reason to keep going don’t they?

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Discocat

Awwwww

So sorry for your loss!!! My cat passed 3 months ago and it's been heart wrenching!!

Our little fur babies give us such unconditional love and comfort!!!

Take heart in the fantastic time you had together and the blessed life you gave her too!

Sending you hugs!

Xxx

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Discocat in reply to Discocat

Also...all my pets have been "rescue animals"....there are so many unfortunate creatures needing loving homes...I know it's early days and you might not want to think about ever having another furry companion....but I know that having my other cats to look after has helped me process the grief of the loss of Pepsi (my recently deceased cat)

You could possibly adopt a mature pet at a later time and spread a little love...and get a lot back too.

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Timtam56 in reply to Discocat

Thank you. Yes that is what I’m trying really hard to do. But it’s not easy….. yet. I know today was much better than yesterday and tomorrow will hopefully be better than today. But there’s going to be so many anniversaries and so many first time I’ve done some one thing without her.

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Aquadog

Making that decision to let them go is hard, even if you know it's the right one. Hold on to your memories. Until then, she'll be waiting for you...

Sending big hugs.

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Timtam56 in reply to Aquadog

Ohhhhh. I told her to wait for me!

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SMPG

I am so sorry for your loss. OUr pets are our children too and their passing leaves an immense sorrow. I know ....

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Timtam56 in reply to SMPG

I’m sorry you know this pain too! It’s crazy making.

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13plus

TimTam I'm so incredibly sad to hear about your sweet Stevie. We get so attached to our pets, they're like our soul mates. Sending you all my love and may you have many happy memories of her to hold in your heart

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Timtam56 in reply to 13plus

Oooo. Thank you. I do I do I do have so many memories!

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Suite1000

I am so sorry, what a loss!

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Timtam56 in reply to Suite1000

Thank you

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Ski2sea

“Nobody can fully understand the meaning of love until they have owned a dog. She can show you more honest affection with a flick of her tail than a man can gather through a lifetime of handshakes.” Author Unknown

My deepest condolences on the loss of your beloved Stevie. Sending a virtual hug - Tara.

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Timtam56 in reply to Ski2sea

Oh that’s so true. Thank you.

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Pbsoup

I am so so sorry. You often shared photos and stories about Stevie so I know how close you were. Losing a beloved pet is just awful. Take the time you need to grieve. 💔

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Timtam56 in reply to Pbsoup

Thanks so much. Yes. I’m going to be terribly selfish with my grief. I promise.

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Aprilfoolz1

I'm so sorry for your loss . Losing a beloved pup is so hard . Sending you lots of love and hugs .

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Timtam56 in reply to Aprilfoolz1

It seems a lot of you understand here!

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Bella_mum

I’m so so sorry to read this, our fur babies are just everything and the grief is enormous. She will always be your baby girl and she’ll be in your heart forever. Treasure the memories and know you’re not alone in this mbc life and Stevie will be watching you and willing you to keep going I’m sure. Cry those ugly tears as often as you need to, sending big hugs from me and puppy kisses from my girls 🐾 💔 🤗

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Timtam56 in reply to Bella_mum

O thank you so much.

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Fiercefighter13

My heart goes out to you. I am so profoundly sorry for your loss. May Stevie rest with the angels until you meet again and you can hold her in your arms again. I understand the sadness and loss that you are going through. Our companions give us joy and love that has no bounds. Hugs to you, wishing you peace.

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Timtam56 in reply to Fiercefighter13

Well I hope peace comes soon for sure. This is unbearable right now. 💔♥️

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Tantalon7211

I am so sorry for your loss of your beautiful Stevie- we share such a bond with them and it’s so difficult when we lose them - it’s heartbreaking - I’ve been there a few times -

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Timtam56 in reply to Tantalon7211

Oh. Sorry you know this pain too.

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bikebabe

sending you much love and hugs. Very traumatic.

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Timtam56 in reply to bikebabe

Yes. ❤️💔

Ouchy!

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1711JPD

i am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet girl. Letting them go is the hardest thing to do, but as my vet told me, it is the last act of love we can give them.

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Cazzandraus

I’m so so sorry for your loss. I know how important our pets are to us. They bring us so much comfort and joy and they are so therapeutic. They are a great distraction from what we are dealing with and they give us unconditional love. I am single and don’t have children and I often say my dog is my reason for living, so you are not alone in your feelings. I am glad you have your daughter and maybe you can spend more time with your granddog especially now. Sending you my deepest sympathy and condolences. 💔

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Rosiero

She had great care and love - that must give you peace of mind. Now you must take care of yourself x

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Timtam56 in reply to Rosiero

She did. She was very spoiled if there even is such a thing.

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LibraryGeek

I am so sorry- how heartbreaking. Pets give such pure love and joy. Sending love x

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love2golfwell

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Stevie. Losing a cherished pet is so difficult. I hope you will find some comfort in remembering all of the wonderful times you had with Stevie. Sending you hugs and prayers.

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Timtam56 in reply to love2golfwell

Thank you so so much

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Pups2Cute

Sending love, hugs and prayers. Your sweet pup will always be in your heart ♥️

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Timtam56 in reply to Pups2Cute

❤️💔

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Oberammergaux2

I’m so sorry for your loss! I can completely understand the devastation the loss of a life-light can mean. I lost my Saint Bernard while going through the first onslaught of treatments. She was my refuge, my safe place, my confidant whose gentleness was my strength. Her ability to understand my vulnerability became her priority. The emptiness and loneliness caused by her loss was unbelievable.

This may be too soon but I will share that I thought of her favorite times (snow!) and took a tiny bit of her ashes to a wonderful tattoo artist. He mixed her ashes in the ink and I have a small snowflake on my wrist. She’s with me always. I’ve had several friends who have since followed the same path and all agree there is something soul touching about having a piece of your heart back with you and visible. It is reassuring and helpful to remind me she is still a part of my life.

Hugs and tears shared 😔💕

Small wrist tattoo
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Timtam56 in reply to Oberammergaux2

Oh how beautiful. Well I can’t do that because I buried her outside my bedroom window. She used to sit on my/her bed and look out that window all day if she could. She loved that spot. And not I have her only a verandahs width away from me. But I love that idea.

I cut some of her fur off her ears, tail and paws. I’ve bought some tiny glass containers and will gift some to dear people of mine who loved her. But haven’t decided yet on what to do for my pieces.

Thank you so much for your care and thoughts.

Stevie’s grave
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Oberammergaux2 in reply to Timtam56

What a beautiful spot! I’m sure she’s with you always….now that you have introduced her to this community she will be one of our sweet champions too…thank you both 💕

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AvidBooklover

Such very very sad news...I am so sorry about this very tough loss. xo

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Bettybuckets

I am so sorry to hear this news MissTimTam. It is so hard to lose a much loved dog suddenly. Our doggies are just pure wells of love! That is a wonderful picture of you loving her.

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Timtam56 in reply to Bettybuckets

Thanks so much buckets of Betty. YES. Someone said Stevie was just a little bouncing ball of life. I think they were correct. Just got through another bout of big tears, and loss. In the form of a gut ache bigger than worrying about me being sick. That’s for sure. Can’t wait to go meet her now.

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mariootsi

So sorry for your loss. Sending hugs

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PlutosNose

much love and prayers for Stevie and you.

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Lilywallytootsie

Losing a Pet is so hard. They give us such unconditional love. Stevie was so young and that makes it that much harder. Lots of hugs and peace to you. Blessings, Hannah

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Beryl71

So sorry , hope you can hang on to other reasons for living. Xx

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Matrooshka

it’s so painful to lose a family member. God’s blessings on you.

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MyDogs2

I’m so very sorry for your loss 💗

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MettavivorDS

I’m so sorry for your loss. I’ve also got a dog and know how special and important they when you have a serious illness.

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Liessie2014

I am so sorry for your loss ,I am thinking of you, take care ❤️

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Saltandlight

I am so sorry for your loss. No matter how long we have them, it’s never long enough. Sending prayers and hugs your way.

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Tam-56

Oh No! I’m so sorry for your loss of your fur baby, Stevie. Our pets are family and the loss is devastating. You gave her a wonderful life and she will be in your heart forever. Sending you love and hugs.

Maura

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Timtam56 in reply to Tam-56

Maura,

Thank you.

I did give her a wonderful life, and I just stopped feeling the guilt and anger part of grieving this morning I think. I woke up, as I do every morning, feeling so sad, again! Then the guilt came on. I should have got her to the vet earlier etc. Then I was telling myself how they kept us waiting for four hours…… and I went “Enough. Enough!!!!!” She was okay, in their eyes when they took her from me and told me to go home. They said they would just rehydrate her. They weren’t even worried!

She went downhill over night and then even more quickly in the morning. She HAD to go. I’m going to hang on to that now. I know I gave her the verrrrrry very best of everything and I could not have loved her any more. I was sick with love for her.

That’s what I’m going to have to grieve now. That I can’t give her my love anymore.💔💔💔💔💔💔💔💔

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Tam-56 in reply to Timtam56

I feel your pain. It will lessen over time if that is any consolation. The only thing that may help is to visit your local shelter and find a fur baby in need of a loving home. There are so many…

The last time I saw my Miss Katey I was leaving her with a vet tech outside the hospital during Covid for an asthma treatment. The vet called me two hours later and said she had a reaction ….She went quickly. I still miss my Kate’s today. We give our fur babies all our love and give them wonderful loving homes and they give us unconditional love… priceless. It is so hard to say goodbye.

Sending you hugs…take good care.

Maura

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Timtam56 in reply to Tam-56

Thank you so much. Yes. 1 week one, and I feel a little bit better. And have so started to fill out application forms to foster or babysit a dog or two. But I think it won’t be long before I have to get one of my own again. It won’t mean that I don’t love Stevie as much as I have loved her always and forever.

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Artesa

I am so very sorry for your loss, it is huge. I understand how she is your reason for living. I'm sending you a lot of love and hugs.

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Timtam56 in reply to Artesa

Thank you. Xx

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Likes

so so sorry for your loss!!!!

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michelangelina

I am so sorry for your loss. Pets are family, and so precious!

I am so sorry for you to lose your Stevie, I have gone through many times losing my dogs and cat. I waited a little while and I got Lucy my Border Collie and she is the best girl. So maybe later you might want to get a Rescue. Helena

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Timtam56 in reply to Iwouldlike2knowmore

You’re right. I may want to. I feel it would be such a waste if I didn’t give as much love as I can to a beautiful little fur baby during the time I have left.

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BritSammy

so sorry for your loss of your beloved Stevie. Our pets are so precious and special. Try and comfort yourself with fun memories. RIP Stevie ❤️

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Timtam56 in reply to BritSammy

Thanks sooooooo much.

Timtam 56, If It will make you feel better which I think It will go and get a cat or a dog for yourself. there is one with your name on it. Helena . PS let me know if you got one.

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Timtam56 in reply to Iwouldlike2knowmore

Helena, I AM looking. Just so you know. 🙈🙈🙈

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Merma

Aw, hugs to you. So sorry for your loss.

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