Thoughts

[VicReg]

Some days you just can’t help wonder if the cancer will come back. I try not to think about it but there are times like yesterday when these thoughts creeps into my head. I know this is normal, I’m just hoping that out there in this world of cancer, others know it’s OK to have these thoughts, we just can’t live in them.

[Nicu697]

These thoughts will always be with us. I pray all the time it helps

[RLN-overcomer]

Sister/warrior I rarely have those thoughts, but when I do I remember the Serenity prayer. I also know that one day we all have to be absent from our physical bodies , but I hope/pray at that time of my journey/destiny I will be present with the Lord. I wake up some days thinking live your life like today could be your last, and I ask myself have I done everything, or am I working on achieving the last two things on my bucket list. Have I made this world a better place for succeeding generations. Have I helped someone today? or this week? When the answer is yes, this gives me joy as I navigate this journey.Worry or stress is a friend to this disease, and I won't let this disease win, or have that kind of control in my life. I try to always keep my eyes on God who gives me strength, and joy daily. I pray you will have a full, full overflowing cup with all of Gods grace, and mercy days, weeks, months, and yes years with your loved ones. Amen XoXoXoXo

[urthmothr]

RLN, what a wonderful reminder! and VicReg, it is comforting we who are officially cured or in remission are not alone in feeling that the shadow remains. We are not just survivors, we are overcomers!

[RLN-overcomer in reply to urthmothr]

Amen sister/warrior, and yessssss over-comer.

[JRARA]

So very true. Much like grief, we don't recover from future worry, we learn to live with it.

[VStrong]

I'm only one year out from finishing chemo for Stage 2 breast cancer that had spread to my sentinel lymph node. I do find myself wondering if the cancer will come back far more than I should. I try to do mediation, listen to calming music, keep busy, and work on thinking positive thoughts. It's not always easy.

[Cu4281]

Just think how there are sooooo many survivors that have lived many years beyond the “5” we hope to make it too. I have met so many ladies 20plus years past so remember that when you let those thoughts come into your head.☺️

[equavel]

Cancer is a chronic illness

It can be treated and kept in check and permit you to have a good enough life but I do not believe that it goes away... it just stays out of sight and can do so for many years

Recent I heard a proverb that helped me think through this;

« We only die once but we live every day “

[CancerkickerKathy in reply to equavel]

That's my thought too. When they tell me it's gone or cured I feel they are sugar coating it. It's a monster living inside me just waiting to attack. Then I will have to kick it back to where it was again.

[CancerkickerKathy]

I am with you there. I didn't worry about surgery or chemo or even hearing those dreaded words the first time. It's the thought that it can come back and apparently in other places. My fear of it hitting my pancreas is probably the biggest. Like you, I don't think about it most of the time but sometimes it just hits me.