I've only just found this site. It's such a relief to read some of the posts and replies as I thought I was being super ungrateful and pathetic.
On the 19th September I returned from dropping my daughter at her new uni and suffered what I thought was indigestion. I did nothing as it passed. Ironically, I had to attend a first aid refresher course the next day where heart attacks were covered. I was advised by the trainer to go to the doctor, but life and events delayed me doing so. I woke up at 2am on 7.10.16 with intense gripping pain and just knew I was having a heart attack. Luckily I was delivered to the local cath lab in under 45mins and had 2 stents fitted. Two days later I was sent home to recover. I was not expecting the emotional chaos. I couldn't sleep in my bed as I kept having flashbacks. My doctor told me I had PTSD which made me feel pathetic. What had I experienced in comparison to others with PTSD? Why did I feel so low when everyone was telling me that 'my heart was probably better than it had been for months'. I felt really ungrateful.
Last Wednesday I had to have another angiogram to see if I needed a 3rd stent. The induced angina attack brought everything back and I ended up sobbing on the bed in the cath lab...how ridiculous and weak was that...but I can't seem to get past this. I'm having panic attacks now and I have never been a panic attack sort of person before.
I am going to rehab on the 1st Dec (wasn't allowed to start the rehab before now until the 2nd angiogram was performed ) I am really hoping this will help.....does it ever go away?