Had a rough couple of days.

[milkteaqueen]

I just need to get this out because I have no support system in my life. My own husband shows me no empathy and acts like how I feel is all my fault. I should just get over it and forget the past. Wow what a thought I wish I had figured that out so much sooner lol. I could just scream and cry. I don’t want my entire life to be consumed by these feelings. When things happen to you as a kid or younger, you think well when I’m older things will get better. “Time heals” but it’s been years and years, feels like it has got worse for me.

I don’t feel like I have the ability to be happy or feel joy. On the inside I’m just angry and sad all the time, I wish I could express it in a good way instead of lashing out. Sometimes I wish I was just numb instead. I see so many people in the world that appear unbothered and so happy and I wonder…how? I wish I was like them, able to live my life care free.

[Wildflowhour]

hi I just encourage you. I don’t think you get over it and then it’s done. It’s something you you feel a little bit better. And then something will cause you to feel worse again. remind you about it, and then you’ll feel worse again, and then you have to. Deal with it. all over again but the next time it might be a little bit easier. Or you’re dealing with a different part of it. And then you might feel some more peace and then something else will trigger it then once more you’ll go back having to go against it again, so you’ll feel like it’s never ending, but the truth is, it’s a cycle that you’re continuing to go through, and it is working on it. feels hard, but it really is helping, so that’s what I encourage you on.

something that’s really important for you to know is that you should look very closely that you choose to spend your time with the most because that influences you a lot. It can really change your whole life. Who. You choose to spend your time so your spouse is one of those people, and if they encourage you and you and help you and and give you then that’s a very good thing. And you keep them in your life. But if they discourage you and make you feel bad and make you feel like you can’t do something to look at because you spend an awful lot of time with The five people that you’re the closest you might want to do some rearranging. Of course you are also one of the five people that you spend the most time with. I suppose that doesn’t even count, but I’m going to say that we really need to learn to , but OK. I just saw that you didn’t have anybody commenting, and I wanted to give you some words of encouragement, you can do it. I know it’s hard going through rough stuff when you’re young really does affect you, but it can make you stronger because somebody hasn’t gone through any hard things will not have any clue when they finally do have to go through hard things. They won’t know what to do, but you because you’ve already gone through it. And you’ve survived. Look at you. You are still here. You are still in this world. Still trying to figure it out. up yet. The fact that you’re posting means that you’re for can do it. Keep it up. Look in the mirror and tell yourself that you love you. That’s the most important thing. OK

[Sidewaystrippin]

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. You aren't the only one. I think sometimes the best people struggle the most on the inside.