The internal contract has been broken

[Senior4merEverything]

PTSD, Severe Depressive disorder, and severe anxiety disorder, reporting in.

I'm in mourning and I'm falling apart inside, I don't want to harm myself, but I want to escape this painful and inescapable beast of a grief cycle!

I did a walk-in session Friday, but it yielded no usable results to me, it was just a momentary placeholder.

For me, reaching out to help other people is what my life's work has been about. But right now, I don't know if I can accept that type of help from anyone else, I don't know if I feel that I deserve the help. The only thing I'm sure about is that I want to be unaware of this pain, I want to be unaware of myself.

[Cadobu]

You deserve help just like everyone else that you have tried to help. I know it can be tough to reach out. I know sometimes I don't know who to reach out to it can be confusing.