I'm the sole carer for my Mum, and I wouldn't change it for the world. But there are moments when I just want to yell at her and shake her. The most frustrating thing of all is her closing her eyes at the most inopportune moments, like when she's halfway across the room, or trying to manoeuvre herself out of the loo, or eating. She will stop completely what she's doing, or if she's eating, just jab and scoop at her plate, often lifting an empty fork to her mouth. She sits trying to find the sleeves of her nightie with her eyes closed. It all takes so. Very. Long.
I find myself begging her to open her eyes, telling her that she could do so much more for herself so much more easily if she would just open her eyes, but sometimes it feels like she's fighting me and fighting her own common sense. ARGH! And then I feel like a horrible person for getting impatient with her and losing my rag. Double-argh.