8 weeks — Keep Going RIP a momma

[bazooka111]

It’s been 8 weeks since you left this earth my sweet Momma, and my heart and soul misses you like nothing I have ever experienced in my lifetime.

I continue to fill my days with scouting and meeting new people as I travel non-stop … trying to keep busy … In the quiet moments … my soul cries and the thoughts fill my heart —- how do I live without you. I find myself wanting to call you, as I have so many times over the years; sharing the latest discoveries and audition videos of my next star!

I was blessed with a Momma that never failed to tell me how proud she was and the depth of love she had for her children and grandchildren.

Losing my Momma has rearranged my world. I see you in every sunset. I know that I have to somehow embrace grief - for grief exists only where love lived first.

Rest Easy my sweet Momma

[Helen119]

love and hugs to you, I’m feeling the same xxx

[fishponds]

we never stop grieving do we or loving or remembering o the wonderful memories of there existence. LOVE that’s what it’s all about everlasting eternal LOVE 💗 xxx Maggie

[daddyt]

You know she is just smiling down on you, Kim.

Tim x

[Kasenda]

You have shown us how to love Kim. God bless you . X

[bazooka111 in reply to Kasenda]

hugs to you for your words … I miss her so very much -Kim

[LostinHeadSpace]

Aw, I was wondering how you were doing! Thanks for posting. Love the picture.

[AJK2001]

Remember she's not left you, she maybe hidden from view but she's is still in your heart. Don't be too busy. You need time to grieve, it's part of the healing process. xxx

[Hiking13]

Sending you so much love, grief is so tough especially when you really loved the person, I still struggle 4 years on from losing my lovely husband but I do think with time you find ways of coping more than you think you ever will. The most important thing is giving yourself the space and time. I read somewhere that grief is like a balloon in a box, when the balloon touches the side you feel intense pain and sadness, when you first lose somebody the balloon is full and squashed against the sides. As time passes the balloon becomes smaller and floats around the box but still the sides and gives us pain and sadness but as the balloon becomes smaller with time we have more time when the balloon is floating around, I think this the time when we can get on with our lives remembering the lovely times without feeling as much pain and sadness. I probably haven’t explained that as well as when I first read it but it has certainly helped me, when I am having a sad day, I think of that balloon and try to push it back away from the sides of the box but no matter how small it gets it will always hit the side occasionally. I think you are doing really well and still managing to embrace life to the full which is exactly what your dear sweet momma would have wanted love Sarahx

[Tippyleaf in reply to Hiking13]

what a great analogy- the balloon in the box- so true . Hope you are doing OK

Xxxx

[Tippyleaf]

Dear Kim

I love the photo of you and your Momma. The early days and it is still very early for you are incredible painful, please be kind to yourself. Being busy is great ( I know) as it takes away time to think and feel the pain. But you have to come up for air sooner or later - getting a balance is difficult particularly when you have had so much to juggle these last few years.

Sending lots of love and a big hug

Tippy

Xxxx

[T-val]

You always have beautiful words. I've been thinking about you so glad you posted, keep remembering those lovely memories. Sending big hugs your way. xx

[Cinderella80]

So lovely to hear from you. The love that you have for your momma is truly pure. I feel the same way about my mum. You did your momma so very proud. I wish to do the same for my mum. Grief never ever goes away they are always in our hearts. We just carry on with the world. So much love and hugs to you.!🌹

[Runner333]

I have been thinking of you and your Mum often. You both have been such an inspiration for me during our psp journey. You will figure out this new life and will continue to make your Mum so proud. Peace and love to you and your family. Linda

[bazooka111 in reply to Runner333]

Thank you Linda — each day has been a challenge, and yet … I know she is smiling down on me. I hope you’re doing ok. ((Hugs)) Kim

[Motts]

Sending Gentle Hugs... Granni B

[bazooka111 in reply to Motts]

Hi 👋🏻 Granni B — I hope you’re doing well — Hugs back to you my friend! - Kim

[Motts in reply to bazooka111]

I am well enough for an Old Lady. Hope all is settling peacefully around you & your loved ones.

[Purrlie]

I have been thinking of you and your Mom, hoping you would post. Sending big hugs, Purrlie

[bichonbear1]

I have been thinking about you, thanks for getting in touch. My thoughts continue to be with you. A lovely photo ❤️

[Dickwin]

Kim, I have been thinking about you and your Momma and wondering how you are doing. The thing you said about wanting to call her...I used to call my Mom 2 or 3 times a week on my ride home from work. After she died, I continued to absentmindedly call her on my ride home. My Dad would answer and say "She's still not here". ):

Thinking of you and your family. Hang in there.

Dick

[Richard33]

Kim ,

Lovely words. We all understand how you feel. Remember - you were the best any daughter could be!

Richard x

[bazooka111 in reply to Richard33]

Thank you Richard … thank you so much. I keep reminding myself, I did the best I could in caring for my sweet Momma. Her last two weeks was the hardest journey … and she is at peace - her body is while again. I hope you’re well -Kim

[Richard33 in reply to bazooka111]

Kim,

It is getting harder......but you are a real inspiration in your strength. So on we go!

Richard 🙂

[Newbones]

I hope in time the pain will lessen. I am not very religious but I found visiting chapel of some comfort I find different schools of art help and if the pain is great and comes when you least expect it please please reach out to forums helplines etc you love for your mum will always be in there. For some reason I find Mother Nature and animals a great comfort. I hope for you Philip xxx

[Mariawatters]

I think of you often as I lost my mum 5 months ago and look for her every day . I’m the one with CBD . I’m happy she won’t watch me decline but at 60 years old I still want my mum . Love to you xx

[bazooka111 in reply to Mariawatters]

Hugs to you my friend. I am so sorry for your loss, so very sorry. I miss Momma every single day. When were you diagnosed? Here for you. Xx Kim

[Mariawatters in reply to bazooka111]

I was diagnosed 7 years ago and had symptoms for 2 to 3 years before that . I have been so lucky as really only starting to decline . I hope you feel some peace soon Kim and enjoy life as your mum would have wanted you to . You were / are an amazing daughter.

Ps I still talk to my mum as if she’s here , it helps me so much with those moments I want her ❤️

[bazooka111 in reply to Mariawatters]

sending morning hugs to you

[Poppypolo]

Thinking of you, like you I am trying to keep busy but it is the quite moments when the lost is so great. i have just lost my husband to p.s.p I had him for six years and he was home with me until the end, we donated his tissue and brain fluid to the brain bank for research into this horrible disease and it will be a great pleasure to help others on his behalf.

[bazooka111 in reply to Poppypolo]

I understand all to well … I had Mom in my home for six years as well, full time caregiver for her. I will forever cherish my time with her. Take care of yourself —- sending warm hugs. -Kim