Last night my stepson (adult, 38, lives with us, learning disabled, lost his job of 20 plus years because of his temper) had a temper tantrum, ranting about how he wanted to start 2019 with a job. He went too far when he said he was tired of looking after his father (when I go to work he gives Dad his pills and maybe a meal--not that Ger is eating more than 2 tbsp of applesauce lately). So I shouted back at him.
I consider each day that I look after my darling husband to be a precious gift. However, after looking after my stepson for 36 years, I am ready to turn my attention full time to Ger. I know that there is not enough of me to spread around to my two sons, but I can make it up to them later. My husband won't be around later, all we have is the here and now.
I am so angry and upset that I thought maybe a little venting would help. Thanks for listening!