After a long, difficult battle with this cruel disease, my husband, Bob, surrendered. He passed away on Christmas Eve, December 24 at 5:45 a.m., less than ten hours after his two children who live 2,000 miles away, arrived. He waited for them.
Before he lost his voice, we would often talk about fear of dying. He was afraid of pain and the unknown. He had no pain, and he was at peace when he passed. I am forever grateful. If there is such a thing as a beautiful death, he had one. With me and his children by his side, we gave him permission to leave. We were strong together, and we helped him on the final leg of his 76 year journey through life.
He was an exceptional artist, a brilliant advertising art director in his time, and a person who was never forgotten by those who knew him. He was unconventional and loved life. He suffered from anxiety and depression throughout his adult life, and PSP challenged both of us to the level of breaking, many times.
On the morning after he died, we went to the crematory to make arrangements. As we left the funeral home, our son broke down and fell apart, running out of the building, sobbing. His sister, his wife, and I ran after him and surrounded him with our arms and our love in the parking lot.
When we looked up, we couldn't believe our eyes. A beautiful bluebird was sitting on my car window, waiting for us to notice him. He stayed a long while, even when we approached him. He insisted that we acknowledge him and absorb the message he was bringing. When he finally flew off the car, he landed on a nearby handicapped parking sign where he lingered again, trying to be sure we saw him. His eyes were on us as if to say, "See me? Watch!!!"
And then he flew away.
My heart is broken, but I have hope because of the little bluebird who came to deliver a message.
Thank you all for your support, honesty and knowledge. I haven't been posting much throughout the years, but I have been consistently reading your posts and learning from you. Sometimes, your posts were all I had to hold onto. We are connected in a way which others who never walked this path could never understand.
Peace to us all.