I keep looking for that black cloud that surely must be following me around. I am the sole caregiver for my husband who has PSP. I am four weeks past major abdominal surgery; my children's father is actively dying (he had his defibrillator turned off because it was shocking him continuously); my son-in-law's father is actively dying from metastatic cancer; and I just got word that my youngest son was transported to the hospital for a severe infection - certainly sepsis and perhaps a flesh-eating virus. It is very scary and I am trying to make emergency arrangements for my husband's care in a nursing home so I can go visit him. No one in any of these situations lives in the same area - stretched through both ends of Maryland, us in Virginia and one in Florida. Just adds to the dilemma facing us all.
Even with all this, I can see blessings in all our situations. And I'm sure that there are those who have worse problems than we do.
I thank God that I have a strong faith and I know he walks with us all the way.
I hope by my next entry, things will be looking up. There can certainly be some things much worse than death.